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What a question, eh?
I had a bit of an epiphany about myself yesterday. I'm sharing just for the helluvit, in case it touches something in any of you who may read this, and because it addresses something several of you have said to me as you observe my sharings. I would have posted this in reply somewhere rather than create an OP but couldn't find the appropriate thread to do so. :)
I have a feeling this is very much a Uranus-triggered "aha" moment, even though I don't know what to DO with it -- if there IS anything to be done at this point. But it involves a realization about myself and how I view Humanity in general and my desire to DO...and how very different that may be from others' wishes, dreams and inclinations.
Have you ever evaluated whether you love individual people, in general, or Humanity as a whole? I don't know if it's because of my life experiences, the empath thing, the overwhelming aspect (being a do'er) of trying to help individuals or what, but I definitely connect more with Humanity as a whole than I do individuals.
Of course we love individuals in our lives. I don't mean that. The only analogy that comes to mind right now is, say, take The Beatles, for example. I'm not a huge fan of any of the members; I don't really know anything about them and am not drawn to them as individuals, per se. However, as a whole -- as the entity called The Beatles -- I have great respect and a reverence for what they offer the world.
I feel the same about Humanity. I may not connect with individual members (nor do I necessarily want to), but I have a tremendous reverence for Humanity as a whole.
The next part of this is Morning Glow's comment fairly recently about her sense that I feel I need to save the world. I said, no, I don't feel that; that I don't feel
I must save the world, as though I'm something special or pivotal in the scheme of things.
But I realized yesterday that, yes, I absolutely DO feel compelled to work toward saving Humanity as a whole. Not me alone as superwoman or anything, but with others who have the same lifelong driving force to DO something to shift things in a REALLY big way.
Bear with me here, please...
Something has nagged at me in conversations of late. Specifically as it pertains to people asking, "What can we do?" given all the crises and injustices. More often than not, I see the response that people are inclined to focus on their families and local communities.
And I absolutely agree with that and feel that's a very necessary, positive path! Yet, it simultaneously has nagged at me....
Then yesterday I realized what was bothering me and I had my "aha" moment. Granted, this is merely my perception, but what I perceive is people moving toward this approach (local, sustainable communities) in an almost selfish way, not to mention fear-based.
Don't get me wrong, selfish can be good. That's not my point. It's human nature to focus on our immediate loved ones to the best of our ability. It comes down to a survival instinct, and I think that's what is taking hold for many right now, understandably.
What I'm observing (and perceiving) is people choosing this focus on local community to the exclusion of also working to help Humanity as a whole. It is as though many have thrown their collective hands up in the air and are saying, "F*ck the big picture; it's too big, it's too awful...I'm going to focus on what is right in front of me."
Again, what I perceive to be a very defensive, fear-based, resigned approach to things.
AND I GET THAT! I really, really, really GET that, and totally understand why people feel the way they feel. Remember, I've been in survival mode myself for a LONG time. Pleeeease, I hope no one reading feels I'm judging or preaching. If you know me at all, you'll know that I readily admit I don't know anything. ;) Again, I'm sharing my feelings and perceptions only.
Yet I think this different approach to life is where my frustration comes into play. While I absolutely, 100% advocate focusing on local, sustainable communities, I also feel that -- for those of us who so choose -- making use of this incredible gift to reach out and connect and network with millions of people around the world via the Internet is something to indeed be cultivated and developed for a more UNIFIED approach to shifting hearts and recreating the world, as we simultaneously focus on local, sustainable communities. Even with these wonderful tools and resources, getting people unified is such an extraordinary challenge. We see that here at DU so clearly.
But then that brings me back to my first point. I wonder if people who DO enjoy individual people in general...love to meet and mingle and socialize with nearly everyone they meet....are more inclined to focus on the local community, whereas those of us who are more focused on Humanity as a whole (because of our own personality issues) lean toward the "bigger picture" of saving Humanity as a whole?
Especially in this forum where we delve deeper into the "why's" of things, I do feel it's important that we evaluate why we do or don't do things so we can be more mindful of our choices.
If one chooses to focus on local communities only and not so much larger efforts to shift the systems of the world, why do you choose that? Is it based in fear or truly based in love?
And I ask myself the same thing: Is my desire to be part of creating larger-scale change based in fear or love? For me, I think it is both. I love Humanity and all living creatures on Mother Earth. I believe we have unlimited potential to create whatever we choose to create, especially when we join together with focused intent. I think I may have more faith in Humanity as a whole than some, and that may fuel my choices and actions.
I am indeed afraid of what can happen if we don't join together with focused intent.
Some of the newly formed communities can survive and flourish as things change, but what of those people who -- for whatever reason -- haven't been given the opportunity to be part of these communities? (Again, this is where I see Wishadoo and other groups coming into play...to help people connect online and then manifest these new ways in their daily lives.)
The lack of a concerted effort to unify more bothers me tremendously. I do feel I'm on a mission to reach as many people as possible, with the help of others who have the same desire...to help people connect, with the focused intent to create a new world. NOT in order to avoid the apocalypse (though that could be a benefit; I'm just not consciously immersed in doom-and-gloom energy), but simply because most of us want a more compassionate, loving, healthy, whole world.
So, MG and others, you were right. I do have an unyielding desire to save the world, though I have zero desire to do so alone. And there
is a touch of "panic" that sets in at times when this clarion call is ignored as I reach out here, there and everywhere (*edit to add including other groups working toward change, as there are so many and the efforts feel so fragmented to me) -- to work toward this bigger vision of connecting with the intent to shift the course of our world. It is sooooo not about this little website called Wishadoo!; it is about something much bigger than that.
*editing to stress this point: I also recognize that the individual efforts we each make within our smaller social circles serve to heal the greater whole. Each act of love, including love for ourselves, can radiate exponentially and, in that sense, we work toward healing the world with each act of kindness, forgiveness, etc.
I know that.Yet I'm speaking of the more "activist" approach to saving the world by joining together and intentionally keeping the whole of Humanity and Mother Earth in mind by brainstorming things we can do TO get people to connect on a global level to heal.
Some may feel it's arrogant to even THINK we can shift things...the bigger picture. Maybe so, but it's part of the hopeful vision that keeps me going. ;)
And others may feel I think ENTIRELY TOO MUCH and sometimes share the most random stuff that make people roll their eyes or stare at the computer screen with a glazed expression -- and I'm with you on that!!! :rofl:
Thanks for reading.
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*edit included above for clarity