So, how is everyone doing , now that the event has passed?

[kimmerspixelated]

Or the main physical transition of the eclipse has been completed for our most special solstice? I know these next few days are the ones to pay attention to. As for me, I am a lot more calm than I was this morning, headache's gone, feeling very hopeful, very hopeful indeed! Sensory feelings.....

[OneGrassRoot]

1. Nothing really different for me...

Nothing feels different, though I did have a bit of a potential creative breakthrough today.

Glad you feel hopeful. Hopeful is GOOD!

:hug:

:hi:

[Sienna86]

2. Good question

I am going through a major career transition and have been feeling very stressed. A conference call this morning went well, and I've noticed feeling better today - easier on myself, less stress.

[MorningGlow]

3. Nothing dramatic (yet?)

I woke up around 2:30 a.m. (ET) and was wide awake till around 4:30. Although skies were clear earlier in the evening, by the time of the eclipse it had clouded over, but I did see the reddish cast through (on?) the clouds, which was cool. Weird, WEIRD dreams after I fell back asleep, but can't recall them now. Today--nothing much, but my final forays into the Belly of the Beast (shopping) were without incident, for which I am thankful. :)

[Ricochet21]

4. Remember, the eclipse is a process

that will max out on Christmas. It's just starting.

Eclipses = realizations! Self-awareness

Eclipse are called LIGHTS, they shine lights in to tiny corners of your mind that are usually dim. Good luck. :hi:

[findrskeep]

5. I'm having a very hard time....

as some of you know my son told me last week that he was considering joining the army, which sent me into a very dark place. Well, he found out there's a two year waiting period on becoming an MP, so that idea is on hold now, thank god. But, I am still in a funk, a BIG one. I don't know if it's from getting so shook up over what happened, or the eclipse or what. I'm very sensitive to energy, and I did speak to a close friend earlier today who's a medium/psychic and she said she was in a funk too. But mine started with the announcement from my son, or at least I thought it did. Anyway, I was glad to see this thread. I was going to post something to see what everyone else is feeling to see if I can figure this thing out. Hopefully it will pass and SOON.

[Ricochet21]

6. We're glad to hear of the hiatus for your son.

The long-term stuff is Plutonian and a bit of the other planets. It's so hard to discern what Pluto is doing for each of us.
Some people are breaking up. Some need to break up. Some people are getting new jobs. etc.

It's highly individualized. Even as I go over one client after another. What I found last week was, the breaking of codependency.
Now, it seems to be transitioning into I'M GONNA DO WHAT I WANT TO DO. I think some of that new thinking is a by-product of Pluto cleansing, but seems to be Uranus approaching Aries in March.

More and more I hear "I'm not going to do what THEY want any more, or care what THEY think," etc. It really is becoming a mixture as we are getting used to Pluto and now we are picking up the new Uranus/Jupiter in Aries. I'd say we're getting somehow used to dark cloud of PL. That's normal.

I'm also hearing from many that they've been BEAT UP so much, that hell, if I have to keep going thru this stuff, I may as well do as I like.

I think we are evolving - and we're seeing through what was NORMAL before in its true light was co-dependency all along; it's just that now, we're WILLING to admit it.

Keeping with the syle and methodology of Pluto: What was our intention all along? That's PL. In other words, when many of us were doinng things for "others", we were really doing things for ourselves. Pluto shoots big holes in such lame motivations. That's EXACTLY why Scorpios are so pure. They answer to this energy every day.

:hi:

[elleng]

7. PURE Scorpios? WRONG THING for end of day, Rick!

('husb - scorpio!:thumbsdown:)

Beat up 2x today, morning and evening, doing things for, you know, daughters.

Sleep? Maybe. (IRS tomorrow!)

[Ricochet21]

17. Scorpios are pure

that's why their great
or awful

The inner pressure of Pluto QUESTIONS them at every turn, "How pure is your motivation?"
If they fail (in their eyes) it becomes self-hatred
then, look out
that's the one you have

many, many of them, have transcended the self/other torture.
I'm sorry you had the other.
You have much Scorpio in your chart
Sun opp Pluto, Tsquare to Saturn in Scorpio

It will purify you

[elleng]

19. Sure need all the 'whatever' NOW.

Hell going on.

[BanzaiBonnie]

10. I've already had two major self-realizations

since the eclipse. Amazing! They were both heavy.

[Ricochet21]

18. Precisely

I'm so glad, it ain't over either! :hi:

[Oak2004]

8. Exhausted, but satisfied (possibly unrelated to eclipse)

I've just finished a new all purpose desk/ workbench to replace a really crappy old one cobbled together out of particle board and two by fours. Demolishing the old desk was not simple: I had forgotten how I had put it together, and expected the two by fours to collapse under the weight of the particle board as soon as I detatched it from the cabinet that supported it on the opposite end. Wrong. I had rabbeted the cross piece that stabilized the legs, and then screwed and glued the legs onto the board with heavy angle irons. The legs were going *nowhere*. Eventually I had to wrestle what was left of the desk onto it's side and unscrew everything.

The new one is made of aspen, and if I do a halfway decent job of finishing it (I usually don't, unfortunately), should look quite a bit nicer than the old one. It will also be significantly smaller - I discovered that a giant desk too big to actually reach across, far from being extra useful, mostly just collected clutter in the out of reach areas. Better a smaller desk and more storage.

I also learned today that my experiment at becoming a DIY compounding pharmacist was a success. I have a friend with bronchiectasis who needs twice daily breathing treatments with 7% saline solution. Insurance won't cover it and out of pocket cost for 7% saline approaches $100/mo. Yep, you read that right: the drug companies charge $100/mo for salt water to people with potentially fatal lung conditions. Since I'm a canner, and I know that 15 minutes in a pressure canner will kill anything that might even contemplate living in salt water, she and I got together laboratory glassware, usp grade salt, distiller water, a gram scale, a box of the tiniest canning jars we could find, my trusty pressure canner, and the exact formula for %7 saline from a chemist. I knew in principle we could cook it up at home; now I know that our homemade nebulizer solution appears to be working.

I love turning stuff into useful things. It's exhausting, but it is good exhausting.

[BanzaiBonnie]

11. And that water and salt concoction ...

was REALLY expensive... right? Bleh on the pharmaceutical companies. Most have been long brainwashed that we could not LIVE without them. Well, it's back to the old ways I tell ye.

And lest you think I'm some sort of Luddite, there are many things created by early researchers that were life savers. But, I'll keep saying this~

When you move your focus away from serving people’s needs, things get distorted. This will happen with any business, institute, organization, government or religious body.

Those who perform service while only thinking of the money have lost the heart of what they're doing.

[Tsiyu]

39. You are so correct

Awesome post, BB :headbang:

I'm not here to dissuade anyone from pursuing the Almighty Dollar (or Euro or Ruble...) but it seems so many people either want to get rich quick - by selling the rest of us nothing for Big Bucks (because "smart" people don't work hard; they are boring, half-drunk blobs of consumption) OR they are completely attached to money and stuff and overly obsessed over who has the proper propertions of same.

Hanging out with these types is what it might be like to hang out with people who only stare at their checkbooks or their debit cards. All. Day. Long.

This week I had many conversations. The best was with a person from Nepal who compared with me our cultures' differences and similarities; the struggles of our governments; the loneliness in being far from home; the beautiful places we have been in this world.

Had I been solely focused on money or myself, I would have missed that wonderful conversation.

I grumbled about not having time and about people's last minute needs


but time is for people


Give to Skinner's Food Drive if you can. :)

Happy Winter Sparkly Time to All :toast:

[elleng]

14. I'd call that 'GREAT' exhausting, Oak! Congrats!

[Silver Gaia]

9. Well... good and bad here... major transitions over the past few weeks.

I have been going through training for a new job over the past six weeks, with the goal of teaching classes in world religion. This is what I spent the past 10 years of my life going to school for -- it's what I wanted to do. When the economy crashed in the fall of '08, I feared my goal was lost. No one is hiring at the public colleges and universities here in California, especially in my field. But this has come to pass not in a way I expected (but that usually seems to be the case for me... when my goal manifests, it is rarely in the exact manner I had believed it would). This will be at a 'for-profit' university, which would not be my first choice. I am, however, accepting that this is ALL I have been able to find (I couldn't even get freakin' Target to hire me as Christmas help!), and I desperately NEED a job. I am taking the view that perhaps I will be able to do some good here for people who might otherwise not be able to learn the things I can teach in such an environment. And I will give them quality. It is my hope that it will be for the best for all concerned. The final 'class' I had to attend in order to be hired for this job was on December 10th.

I felt a sense of relief but it was short-lived. Cody, my dear canine companion for the past 18 years, decided two days later that he no longer wanted to eat. He seemed fine except for that, and in consultation with my vet, Jill (a wonderful holistic vet), we decided to wait and see, since he has done things like this before. At his age, we were both expecting this might be the last time, but we wanted this to be on his terms, not ours. The vet's office always frightened him, and he'd had pain and difficulty standing and walking due to his arthritic hips for several years. We decided not to put him through all of that unless absolutely necessary. We did not realize how serious the situation was until late Wednesday, after office hours.

The worst for me came on Thursday morning. Cody passed away that morning after suffering through the entire night when all I could do was hold him and try to comfort him as best I could. I was, and still am, devastated by this. He was an old soul and a true soul mate. My heart is ripped to shreds by his passing and especially by the traumatic way in which he passed, but as my husband and a friend helped me to see on Sunday afternoon, he was a warrior and through his deep love and with his great heart he fought to the very end to protect me as best he could. I begged him to let me take part of his pain for him, but I heard a roaring NO! in my mind from him, and at one point, he even pushed me away with his paw when I asked. Perhaps he was trying to tell me that this was HIS journey alone, and not one he could share with me. I have been wracked with pain and guilt over not being able to take some of the pain from him (I am an empath, and it should have been easy to take at least a part of it, but I was blocked). But I have found some comfort in the thought that this was his choice. And I can and will respect that.

So that was the bad. The very, very bad that has left me feeling empty and exhausted. And incredibly sad.

Monday, I faced the task of having to complete a mountain of paperwork for Human Resources for my new job -- things that had to be printed out, read, filled out, signed (a couple even had to be notarized) and faxed back to them. I was forced to try to set aside my grief for a few hours to try to complete all of this. A part of my thinking was that I have wondered if Cody was holding back, if he was feeling bad, but knew that I was under a huge amount of stress while I was attending the training sessions for this job (these were actually weekly 4-hour evening CLASSES with homework, and if you didn't pass any one of them you weren't going to be hired), and wanted to wait until he could feel me relax. I say this because this seemed to be the way it happened. Once he felt me relax, he began to let go. I felt in my heart that if I somehow messed this up, if I allowed my grief to consume me to the point that I was unable to complete this part of the journey toward a new job, then I would be disrespecting everything he tried to do to hold it all together for me as long as he could. (Had he passed before I had completed this training, there would have been NO WAY I could have done it. Just no way...)

I did manage to remember the eclipse last night right at the crucial moment (thanks to threads I happened across here at ASAH), and was able to view it for maybe 15-20 minutes during its peak in a circle of clear starry skies before the clouds covered the moon from my view once more. It was a very powerful experience that I posted about on another thread here afterward.

Tonight, I was finally able to talk with my vet again about what had happened with Cody. She knew he was gone, but we hadn't been able to find time to talk about it until tonight. For some reason, she was able to make me feel lighter. After speaking with her, I felt as if a part of the burden I'd been carrying was lifted. She assured me that I did nothing wrong, that I listened to him and took my cues from him, that I allowed his death to be his own, on HIS terms, HIS way, and that this was the most respectful thing I could have done. I am feeling more at peace tonight, more accepting.

So, in answer to this question I see being asked here (and on several different threads here tonight), I am not sure how I am doing. What I AM sure of is that this has been a period of HUGE shifts for me. A transitional period I will not soon forget. And I truly hope that, for me, there is not more building in the wings. I don't know if I can take much more. I am being buffeted by winds of change that are swift and terrible yet come bearing gifts. It is a strange feeling.

And I still have a birthday to make it through on Monday -- my own, my birthday. If anyone out there reading this (did anyone even make it this far? if so, I thank you!) is getting anything, whether astrologically, psychically, or by any other means, please tell me. I need to know. I feel like I'm in limbo. Definitely a bit more at peace than I have been since Cody passed beyond the veil, but I am still wary of what is next in this cycle of events.

[BanzaiBonnie]

12. I'm so sorry for your loss of this dear friend

And I agree. You did good by him. I know it was hard, but it was exactly as he wanted it.

And yes, I read your whole post.

[Silver Gaia]

21. Thank you, Bonnie...

for your kindness and for reading that whole long post. :)

You know, another thing my vet and I talked about was that, when I realized what was going on with him late Wednesday, I told him that it was his choice whether to stay or go. I told him that should he want to stay and should he be able to stay, that I would be there to love and help him as always, but that if he should choose to go, I would love him always and would miss him terribly, but would understand. I think, in retrospect that, perhaps, given this great choice, HIS choice was to stay.

His spirit was was willing and his will to live was STRONG (consider that he was 18 years old, which is a very great age, especially for a large dog -- a border collie/german shepherd mix... so beautiful and so very intelligent! -- and that, over the past 6 years of his life, we had gotten him through cancer TWICE -- using Chinese medicine and herbs, not chemo -- as well as a near-fatal blockage in his colon... he lived another 2 1/2 years after that when my vet thought he would only be with us maybe another 6 months at the time).

But his body just couldn't do it. Even though still outwardly beautiful (his coat was still soft, full, and glossy), inwardly it was old and worn-out and could no longer support his great-hearted spirit in this world. Yet he fought against it, because he wanted to stay. My vet even laughed and said, "He was a stubborn old fart!" which I accepted with a smile. He was. Always headstrong. Always wanting to do whatever it was HIS way, which I always let him do out of my great respect for him, unless I knew it was a danger to him. So, yes, "exactly as he wanted it" was to fight. To fight to stay, and to protect me from his pain. As my husband and friend pointed out, his was the way of the warrior.

We are soul-mates. That is not a bond easily broken. And he is a wise and very old soul. He taught me many things in those 18 years and was my constant. I think he will come back to me. When he has rested and is ready. And when I am ready. We will find each other again. Some way, somehow.

Thank you for listening... it helps to write about it...

[mysticalchick]

13. Wholeheartedly agree with Bonnie

Our beloved pets are so dear to us, such a part of us that their passing can really rip us open. I've had three cats pass away and my heart has broken open in different ways with each of my babies. I truly understand, silver gaia. I think many of us do.

My view is this: you do your very best with an open heart and the rest is out of your control. In speaking with pets who have passed over, I find they hold *nothing* but unconditional love for their family. NOTHING. It's a beautiful thing to witness and I'm glad I can do so.

Your heart was with Cody and he felt that. Know that. And know that you will be reunited with him one day.

Much love to you as you step into your new path.

[Silver Gaia]

22. Thank you, too, mysticalchick...

Thank you so much for sharing your view. I think that *unconditional* love you speak of is a huge part of what hurts so very much when we lose them. Their love is the most true and pure form of love (outside that of babies) that we humans can experience. It is the only bond we can form with another mature being that is so forgiving and absolutely unconditional. Try as we might, we don't have that with other humans. There is always just too much emotional baggage. But with an animal, when we find that sweet spot of trust and openness, we are enveloped in such a bright and pure love that the loss of it in our lives is incredibly hard to bear, and rips our hearts open.

Bless you for the work you do, and for sharing your insights with me. I believe in my heart that, either here or there, we will find each other again. That is some comfort.

[OneGrassRoot]

15. .....

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[Silver Gaia]

23. OGR... thank you so much for these hugs, my dear friend...

I welcome them with open arms.

[I Have A Dream]

24. I'm so very sorry, Silver Gaia.

:(

Much love to you. :hug:

Happy trails, Cody.

[Silver Gaia]

29. Thank you, IHAD...

I still grieve, and will for a very long time I know, but my heart is lighter today. For the first time since Cody's passing, the sun shines in my garden.

[I Have A Dream]

30. I'm so glad to hear that today was a little better, Silver Gaia.

I hope that each day gets a little easier.

:hug:

[MagickMuffin]

28. Something I would like to share with you is this:

Cody's Love and Spirit made it possible for the clear skies and view of the Lunar Eclipse.

I wanted to post this on the thread that you first posted to about this, but I have been suffering from a serious illness.


May Life, Light, and Love continue to surround you during all the transitions you are experiencing.

[Silver Gaia]

32. Thank you, my friend.

I had sensed this within, but had not voiced it. Thank you for VOICING it.

I hope you are feeling better. I am sorry to learn that you have been ill.

Healing Blessings to you...

[MorningGlow]

31. You did everything right, SG

Don't beat yourself up. I read your whole post, and what I gleaned from it is that you loved your furbaby with your whole heart and soul, and you did right by him. :hug:

I noted downthread that you feel Cody will come back to you; just wanted to say that I got that impression when I read this first post of yours.

Sending you and Cody light and love. :hug:

[Silver Gaia]

33. Thank you so much, MG...

Yes, you got it: I have been beating myself up. The guilt I felt at not being able to ease his pain was literally eating me alive for probably the first 36 hours.

Bless you for sharing your thoughts and your love here. And thank you for the love and light. Accepted gratefully.

[Digit]

37. My heart goes out to you

I hope I can be as strong as you when the time comes for my own dear Maine Coon cat of 18 years lets me know it is time. She has cancer and anymore surgeries would be too dangerous. She is not doing too well these days and I am watching and dreading for the "signal".
Your story will give me strength to allow her to choose her time or at least be watchful to know what she is trying to tell me.

What a cherished relationship the two of you had...it really touched my heart.
You not only shared your special relationship with Cody, but you managed to teach some of us some lessons in love and letting go....so please be at peace.

Thank you for a lesson I needed to hear, even though it brought tears to my eyes. I tend to see it as a gift you just gave me, and it is YOUR birthday.

I appreciate you sharing your experience...may the new year bring you new joy and happiness in spite of the tragedy of losing your furry soulmate.

RIP Cody

[Silver Gaia]

48. Thank you, Digit.

Your post brought tears to MY eyes. I was surprised and touched to read your words. I am glad that my post was a source of strength for you. I am so sorry to hear about your Maine Coon cat, but I do understand so very well what you are going through. May love guide you and peace be with you in the coming year. Bless you and your sweet four-legged one.

[Tsiyu]

40. I'm so sorry about Cody

But I think it's timely that you have this new career move to journey through.

The universe knew you needed something really good to happen when your beloved companion was ready to leave; it does not hurt less, but you have something to distract you in a good way from the pain.

You sound like you already get that, and how wonderful of Cody to wait til you were finished with the training. Good Doggy!

You can make a huge difference to your students wherever you are - public or private. And I know you will.

Happy Winter Sparkly Time, :toast: Silver Gaia

have a hot toddy for Cody :)

[Silver Gaia]

49. Tsiyu, thank you...

Yes, something new in my life will be good. Thank you for the well wishes. Blessings to you for the new year as well.

[Ricochet21]

16. Did you notice how DADT is repealed under eclipse?

Saturn (restriction) has been squaring Pluto (sexuality)
The eclipse is hitting both right now.
Saturn's restrictions have been demolished by Pluto
That's another way it works

[Fire Walk With Me]

20. Having to dig ever deeper, to offer pride, denial, and grandiosity to God...

The squeeze is on. Thankfully 2011 has some nice energy...

[Cleita]

25. To speak of politics, there has been talk today of

the White House, Obama and Biden getting their mojo back not to mention Congress. It's like they all woke up and have decided to be Democrats. I thought, wow, this is so soon and so sudden.

[I Have A Dream]

26. Yeah, it's as though the stars have aligned.

;)

It's a beautiful thing to watch Democrats act like Democrats.

:woohoo:

[WhiteTara]

27. I'm still cleaning

We moved into this house about 15 months ago (Autumn Equinox 2009) and we finished unpacking the last box here about one week ago, and I've been cleaning since. I started at one corner and I am working out. The people we bought from had dogs that were so destructive! There isn't a door in the house without dog scratch marks. I've gone through 2 pairs of gloves and a full bottle of lemon oil and another of scratch remover. It's really starting to smell so nice here. I found Mrs Meyer's Clean Day and I'm hooked! I plan to finish by New Year's Eve.

My partner and I are more in love each day and my life is blissful...albeit for the normal (?) sudden breakage of many things.

May this turn of the Wheel bring each of you happiness and peace.
:grouphug:

[OneGrassRoot]

34. Personally, I'm rather blah, but my observations....

are that we are at a very distinct crossroads.

There is a real shift toward positive manifestations (thanks to the Senate); of course, this time of year tends to bring out the best in people as well...though it quickly dissipates after January 1st.

On the other hand, there are huge negatives manifesting...suffering, disasters, deceit.

Again, I feel so strongly that, given the online tools we have to connect, we can have a concrete effect on the happenings in the world by joining together....for "good" or "not so good."

Where are we going to place our focus? I don't condone ignoring the suffering, disasters and deceit, but do we choose to get mired down in the hopelessness, or shift our focus to work toward (or simply give energy to) shifting things?

:grouphug:

[Ricochet21]

35. 1 grass root

a voice of Chiron

[Ricochet21]

36. Eclipses do have a mysterious sense of calm

around them. I've watched them closely for a long time and had an ex who always asked, "What's that one gonna do?"
I'd say, "I dunno"

They're very hard to figure.
They definitely trigger what they touch.

As with all Lunations, Full Moons, New Moons, Lunar Eclipses, and Solar Eclipses, the sign they occur in is the FLAVOR or mood of the eclipse.

If they are aspecting other transiting planets while LIGHTING up, it becomes much more complex and unpredictable.
Then, there's what ever planets or points it is hitting in your chart.

I'd say the biggest thing I know about eclipses is that they bring AWARENESS, Lucid, clear awareness.

Most times, I've noticed that an initial event is NEGATIVE during the time of the eclipse, but is usually followed up with positive outcomes.
This one is being complicated by Mercury Rx, a bad one at that.
and the powerful activation of the Pluto square to Saturn.

Put that in your compressed pipe and get loaded? :hi:

[liberalmuse]

38. Not good...

I'm flying back east to care for my mom on Monday, who is dying. You can go back and read some of the posts I've written over the years. Ours has been a very rocky relationship until about a year and a half ago. I had to take a a sudden leave of absence from my job to care for her - just told my boss yesterday after I spoke with the hospice worker (my mom told us she was requested - but that wasn't true). The hospice worker advised I get there in days, not weeks.

I'd known she wasn't doing well, but she forbid her doctors from releasing any info to my sister and I. She did not do treatment because she figured Jesus would heal her. Then the other night she called to tell me the doctor told her there wasn't any hope, and that's when it hit me. My strong-willed, stubborn mom sounding weak and resigned. I did not want her to know I was crying, so was pretty much silent during the call until I could compose myself. I didn't want to upset her. Her lungs are filling up with fluid again - they were just tapped a week ago. She apologized for trying to hide her true condition from us. Now she's been calling everyone tonight to say goodbye, even our kids. I'd been feeling she may pass on Christmas Eve for a long time. I hope to God I'm wrong, and she is still alive when I arrive. I'm scared and sad. I just thought I'd post here to vent. No one need respond or anything. It just helps to type this. I have people to talk to, but we'll both cry, and I don't want that now.

[OneGrassRoot]

41. It does help to type things out for some reason....

I hear you, liberalmuse.

And we just never know how what we share can help another.

I send you supportive hugs...I'm so sorry. This is one of those huge life challenges that is so. damn. hard.

Bless you, bless your mom...

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[liberalmuse]

45. Thank you so much!

OMG, the kindnessess (?) I've experienced to day are overwhelming. Thank you for taking time to post, and lay it on the line. Yes, I know this is life - it ain't easy, but unlike my mom, I can breathe. :( The things we take for granted - like breathing...

[findrskeep]

42. I'm so sorry Liberalmuse....

Know that I feel your pain and I'm sending both you and your Mom positive energy to deal with the situation. Much love and peace to you.

[liberalmuse]

46. Thank you!

This means more than you'll probably ever know.

[Ricochet21]

43. Blessings to you both

[liberalmuse]

47. Thank you.

All I want to do at this point is to be able to hug her and kiss her. It looks like that is going to happen. :hug: :cry:

[I Have A Dream]

51. I'm holding you both in my heart, liberalmuse.

Much love to your mother and to those who love her.

:hug:

[Silver Gaia]

54. Much love and light to you, LM.

My heart is with you.

[BanzaiBonnie]

57. You and yours are in my thoughts

[Proud_Lefty]

44. Feeling disconnected, isolated, ungrounded,

like I'm not where I should be. With that said, I'm not feeling any other negative emotions. Don't quite understand why I feel so separated when everything in my life seemed so content. :shrug:

[Manifestor_of_Light]

50. Feeling calm.

Santa went to Toys R Us (Micro Center) and got me a big awesome HP Laptop!! 17 inch screen.

My old desktop computer was 9 years old and totally buggy with spyware and whatnot that sneaked on over the net, in spite of using Norton Antivirus and Security vigilantly.

This is my first post from my new HP Notebook. :bounce: :party: :bounce: :party:

Just feeling calm and hopeful.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL THE GOOD FOLKS AT DU!!




Axial Tilt is the Reason for the Season
Keep Saturn in Saturnalia

[BlueIris]

52. I had one *very* weird visualization last night.

Things have been kind of...confused for me lately. For the first time in years, I honestly don't know what to believe about anything. Or anyone. So, last night, while trying to sleep, I randomly asked my intuition where I "was at." I got a strange visual of myself on a map. I saw myself just past a fork in a road, branching out like a wishbone, and I had clearly taken the path on the right.

The interesting thing was, the path on the left looked like the spiritual path. It was much smoother and didn't really seem solid. It was glowing, and had a bright, blurry looking circular place a ways forward on it.

The path on the right was solid and stable. Seemed kind of ordinary actually, if busy. No wavy lines, no fluidity.

I'm kinda glad I didn't take the path on the left. It didn't look exactly...earthly to me, if you know what I mean.

And the really interesting part was that strange, horizontal bar like thing I saw coming from the circle of light on the left path. Because it intersected with my path a ways into what I'm guessing is the future. So there might be an opportunity for me to get to the circle in a few years anyway.

I don't entirely know what to make of that image--except I don't recall a time recently when I was actively questioning my Path, or hitting a fork in it, especially not one that could take me away from good ol' planet Earth. (:sarcasm:) I wonder where the turning point was, and why I chose to go to the direction I did.

[LiberalEsto]

53. Totally wiped out

Barely managing to brush my teeth today.

The pre-holiday and holiday shopping, cooking, baking, cleaning, wrapping, sewing, baking for and organizing the UU church Christmas Eve cookie reception...cooking the Winter Solstice dinner, putting together the ritual, cooking the traditional Estonian Christmas Eve dinner, preparing the customary eggs benedict for Christmas brunch.

I can't recall when I felt this exhausted before. Must be starting to feel my age - approaching 59. And emotional exhaustion.

I'm also going through some really unusual family stuff. My only uncle, who essentially ignored me and my brother for our entire lives, reached out to my brother out of the blue a few days ago. He's 91 and thinks he does not have much longer to live, and apparently wants to leave everything to Pete and me because he can't stand his stepson. Not that there's much, and we certainly weren't expecting anything from him, even a "Hi, how are you?". I would far rather have had a loving uncle in my life than anything material, and it's uncertain whether we will actually inherit from him anyway.

I last communicated with his wife, a world-class bitch, back in 1988 a few months after my father died. I'd sent him notice of my father's (his only brother's) death, but received no response, so after a few months, I called to see if he had gotten my message. The wife answered and said, "So what were we supposed to do?", grumbled that they had had the flu, and that was it. Never heard from either of them again, and I decided not to bother with them again either. I had sent them Christmas cards for a few years before my father died, but they never responded.

So it was truly a bolt out of the blue to get a call from my brother about Uncle Tip (whose horrible wife died about a year ago) calling him last week. My brother went to see him on Christmas Day and found the uncle was in poor health but still sharp of mind. The woman who comes in to cook and clean for him hadn't been there because of the holidays. They talked, my brother helped tidy up and get our uncle cleaned up, and decided to drive down every weekend to help out as long as necessary. It's about 1 1/2 hours for my brother, 4 1/2 hours for me to get there. I offered to come up and help take care of him too (out of a sense of family responsibility that I seem to be cursed with, although I have almost never had anyone express family responsibility toward me). But Pete did not think our uncle would want that.

Just hearing from the uncle was a shock. I'm resigned to not having family beyond my husband, daughters and my extremely dysfunctional brother. And an aunt and cousin in Estonia.

[PhillyGurl]

55. I was feeling OK until Xmas Eve

and then I felt depressed and sad. Xmas day I felt agitated, short tempered, bored - feel likewise today.

Like I am in a cage, this damn snowstorm isn't helping things either, stuck in the house. I just want to go back to work!

[Myrina]

58. Me, as well, Philly ...

... almost a tic of cabin fever, even though I'm in Indy and there were no snow issues. Mental cabin fever maybe?

Christmas as a concept is very depressing to me, so the weekend was a challenge. I watched about 10 dvd's, walked my dogs and played alot of computer-games to keep my mind occupied.

I hope now things can get back to 'normal', as I was really enjoying the forward momentum I've been seeing in my professional, personal and spiritual life.

Hope things are looking/feeling better for you soon! :hug:

[Habibi]

56. Maintaining.

Only that, with some transformative thoughts percolating. I'm not expecting a "kaboom," just now; only some incremental transformation occurring over the next few weeks or months.

I'm okay with it. :-)

[findrskeep]

59. I'm "getting" psychically that all this stuff we are feeling.....

it is coming to the surface because it needs to heal. We need to "thank it" for the opportunity it (the stuff) has given us to heal and then just let it go. I know it's hard to feel this way in the midst of it, but this is what I keep getting, even while I was in the middle of a meltdown last week, I kept getting this message..did I listen? No. lol. Well, maybe a little. I hope this helps someone out there feel just a tad better.

[Ricochet21]

60. You got it

good luck with it. :hi: