Returning to Spirit Family & Practice

[FirstLight]

I feel like I am being reborn again...maybe this whole 'rut' i had been in had more to do with unemployment depression than I thought it did.

I went back to my meditation class this week, and just *SO* enjoyed sitting in spoirit for 45 minutes...ahhh
And how nice to feel non judgement about 'where i had been'.....As much as i know these lapses in spiritual growth happen, i still find that I beat myself up alot about slacking off...

So today, i went back to my Lutheran Church. A beloved church patriarch had died and his memorial/celebration of life was today. I knew i had to show, partially out of respect for the family, and mostly to be there for my dear friend, his daughter. it was harder than i thought.
Not only was I welcomed with open arms and hugs of joy and sharing tears of grief...but the profound loss of this great man was a big lesson to me. He was amazing, and the biggest lesson and gift he left behind was one of huge LOVE. If i can live my life with that kind of giving, then i could probably say i had accomplished something. just wow.
Afterwards i hugged another soul-sister, who just happens to be the pastors wife. She's young like me and such a cool momma... she said she'd missed me and i was unprepared with anything to say. I'd been wanting to come back, but my own guilt had made me judge myself and stay away...as i stammered for a response...she said
"Shhh, stop. I dont need your excuses...I just want to love you."

:cry:

what a lesson...!

Spirit doesn't care if we come or go or stay or leaveor get mad or stubborn or anything - God just wants to LOVE us.
:grouphug:
love you guys, too

[japple]

1. Hope you are soaking in all of this, dear FL. It's so nice to

read this post from you. :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

2. Yes, the Universe loves us beyond our ability to even contemplate.

It's so difficult to remember as we make our way in this world. Sometimes it takes another human being to remind us of this unlimited, constant love that is always there for us to tap into.

I'm so glad that the Universe showed you its love very clearly today, FL. You add color to the world, and that is greatly valued by the Universe. Never forget what you add to the world just by being here. You don't have to do anything to have value.

:loveya:

One of my friends like to joke that the Universe loves him best. He's right, and the same applies to you, and to me, and to the person sitting in the car next to us as we drive to work because we're all one. :hug:

[FirstLight]

3. totally!

I want that on a t-shirt...

front : God loves ME Best!!

and on the back: and you, and you, and you,and you...infinity....