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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 04:49 PM
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These are REMARKABLE times
Edited on Fri Jan-21-11 04:51 PM by Ricochet21
I'm not joking. All from the Lunar eclipse on 1/4 accompanied by Jupiter conjuncting Uranus on the same day. It is so profound
that I am scurrying, trying hard to explain much of it in what looks like my next newsletter.

Do not underestimate what's going on. It's here - the awakening. It's just like some of you have written recently. Ease of experience, (Jupiter), awakening (Uranus). This is big. It "mistakenly" appeared as the "13th sign" but it's bigger than that.

Also, something is up, I think, with the very archetype of Scorpio, I don't know what it is, think about it:

1) 2006 Pluto, Scorpio's ruler, gets "demoted."
2) Jan '11, attempts to override Scorpio with Ophiuchus fail. (The first coup d'etat I've ever seen with the planets)

This is a symbolic art. These things matter and can take a long time to discern. Don't worry Scorps, you'll still wake
up tomorrow with your stinger and strong passions.

More soon....

I may have to eat my words, but I'm thinking now that Karen Bishop, in her own way, has been right on... :wow:
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kimmerspixelated Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 05:33 PM
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1. I certainly feel the energy of it...
Now in another post I had a question that probably got lost, but it is
"...during this final band of our evolution completion...( ninth underworld stuff) what does it look like astrologically? If everyone/or damned near everyone.. Converges,(harmonically) then isn't it likely to look the same on the charts? And /or is that what is already happening basically? Argh!"

I realize this may be a really dumb question once you point out something obvious,, but it was on me mind!
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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 06:00 PM
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2. I think it might be quite presumptuous
to use the phrase "final bank of our evolution completion"

I think we know very little about who and what we are. We're learning though.
Western Astrology only shows so much. It only takes us so high. That's why I referred people to Esoteric Astrology
which seems to be much more focused on the soul level.

You can't get caught up thinking of group charts. In other words, did all of the thousands on board the Titanic show disastrous results on their individual charts on that fateful date? No. What about the 6 million who died in the Holocaust. No.

At that point, it becomes much harder to disseminate and we look to the chart of the Titanic itself, or the Nazi Regime itself. As has been said but is largely ignored because of EGO, we are part of the Collective. The collective, as Jung worked on so carefully,
is an ENTITY unto itself. Just like one ego.

And that very entity was just JABBED in the stomach during the crisis in Tucson. That very same entity was set on its ear, and flipped out a week later when the world panicked into thinking that there were new astrological dates for our sun signs.
It's all related to Jupiter and Uranus because those were the planets that were active.

An event cannot happen without the symbolic planets of the same energy being present at the same time and
the energy of the event cannot occur unless matching events correspond. They are both the same thing seen from opposing poles.

We put too much focus on our "Sun sign." It's like noses, and egos, we all have one. We take ourselves too seriously. We have to
broaden our lenses and focus. The recent JUPITER CONJUNCTION WITH URANUS just did that for us: or, in other words, we have become
READY to see at such level beyond self. This equates to evolution. Not the FINAL evolution, just another step up, as you put it, the spiral of understanding. We've come a very long way, compared to cave men, hell, we still have "cage wrestling" on TV, but we've just begun at the same time. It's always an Aquarian paradox. :hi: :hide: :patriot: :shrug: Don't you see yourself and your friends and family absolutely flying at an enormous rate when it comes to your awareness?
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kimmerspixelated Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 06:41 PM
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3. Oh, Rick!
Just wow.. Thank you so much for enlightening me ...again!

Backing up, yes, an error of thinking/expression about the next rung as finality... I am so enamored with this subject with more books on the way, but no, this is another step...UP... definitely ...

Rick I have felt lately a very big evolution personally. But for the last few years I have become glued to all things that are in the least bit spiritual..But what has hit me a lot is just a grand feeling of electricity-Uranus-I feel like I feel everything! My family...ha.. my daughter just thinks I'm being weird anyway, but as a teen she is changing rapidly anyway...so it is hard to tell.....Time does fly at an enormous rate as of late.My happy friends-(also enlightened- they know,the energy of this time)

There's the concept that in the life of the avg. age of man based on 72 yrs. that the time from 52-72 goes by quickly, just like in this last of the underworlds(260 days). Whereas the first underworld -millions of yrs, is seen as being likened to that of a child's view-taking forever...will it ever get here! That kind of thing...

Books I've read on the subject about this time that I am re-reading seem to really resonate with me more, from even six months ago! I feel it so much, that I feel ready to explode..but my creativity! WOW!....so there is more of a need for real relaxation, and on these horribly cold and sunless windy days I am not at ease and feel lost.. I have rambled and I wanted to ask more questions.. but I love how you guide us, and now that we are in AQUARIUS !!!>>> I wonder if you happen to know what my chart looks like?? I know you're busy.

Oh, Oh, I remember... Rick ! Don't you think it is interesting that as we enter into our next evolution that Aquarius is the only sign that involves a human as its symbol??? What year is that official??:hi: :loveya:
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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 07:40 PM
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5. The rapid growth IS. J u p i t e r and U r a n u s
Do not underestimate such powerful growth.
The Sun going thru the sign of Aquarius one month per year is totally different than the Age of Aquarius. No one knows exactly when the that age will start. It's not yet. I'm using the date of 2025 but all astrologers differ on that.
Yes, it is interesting, but remember, Virgo uses a female image.

I do know what your chart looks like, yes. It is the weekend, and I am off. Translation: consumed with Quantum change indicated
by the powerful Jupiter/Uranus conjunction.

In everyone's chart, just look where the end of Pisces is and the beginning of Aries is for YOUR story. That's where it's hapnin.

:hi: :smoke: :nuke: :fistbump:
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FirstLight Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 06:45 PM
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4. ...is this what's making my head spin?
I swear, today the little hamsters on the wheels inside my head are FLYING!

almost makes me nauseaous, definately giving me a headache! blech!
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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 07:45 PM
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6. It is definitely the energy
that could be corresponding to a "head-spinnnig" reaction. It "did it to me" quite dramatically last Friday. But that was
because I let it in and had a major epiphany that rocked my world. Literally.

It is not CAUSING the spin: whether we can keep up with the energy or not is the question.

AGAIN: Planets do not come by to hurt us or give us a headache or make us nauseous.

The problem is not "out there" :hi: It is a new POWERFUL energy which will take varying amounts of time for
each of our consciousnesses to "catch up with" or "evolve to." If we get it at all.
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FirstLight Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 08:02 PM
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7. well if i slowed down enough to EAT
maybe I wouldn't feel so0 freaky, now , eh?


damn overachieving cappy that I am....
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Shallah Kali Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 09:34 PM
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8. Olbermann's contract not renewed with msnbc - tonight was his last show
:spray:
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elleng Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 11:16 PM
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9. More to it than that, Shallah, as contract has/d 2 years left!
Surely an indicator of 'remarkable times.'
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southerncrone Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 11:30 PM
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10. Olbermann is an Aquarian.
Ruled by Uranus....coupled w/Jupiter, perhaps there is something BIG on the horizon for him. Perhaps expanding the Free Clinics (humanitarian/Aquarian/Uranus) in a big (Jupiter) way.
Or something new & unique (Uranus).
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findrskeep Donating Member (367 posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 12:24 AM
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12. I totally agree, something BIG is happening and happening now...
not that we haven't all known that this awakening has been going on for awhile now, but it seems to have sped up, and I mean REALLY sped up just in the last couple of weeks. Personally, I am experiencing more contact from "visitors" and more synchronicity than I have experienced in years. Not to mention what I would call downloads of information, which just seem to explain everything. I'm not exactly sure where all of this is leading me, but I'm sure interested to find out. This energy is intense, but it feels good.

I'm hoping that this heightened state of awakening spreads far and wide. I can't help but notice that events that are taking place in our world, especially in the good ol' U.S. of A and peoples' reaction to those events, are becoming more and more ridiculous by the minute it seems. It does help to know, thanks to some of the information I've been getting, that peoples' behavior has to become more and more polarized even though it seems INSANE to most of us, in order to do just that, wake more of us up. Let's just hope it works. Some of those blinders people have on seem to be the extreme heavy duty models.
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southerncrone Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 12:43 AM
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13. Cruising right beside you, findrskeep.
Could not have said it better. I've experience the exact same thing & had the same thoughts. When I heard about the Giffords shooting, I immediately KNEW this was an event that was to wake up even more people & would lead to exposing more of the darkside. When we heard that she survived & was doing so well, I knew it was going to be like the Haitian quake......opening up the hearts & souls of the multitudes. I wait every day to hear what "secret" of the darkside is exposed from this. The Wikileaks is another of those events. Things are speeding up so fast now that every day seems to lead us closer to "the truth".
The downloading of info is coming fast, too. Feels like we are getting all the parts of the puzzle now & finally able to put some of them in place to see the REAL picture.

I think we will continually have these events happening until there can be no denying by ANYONE what is going on.....the churches will be the last to accept the truth, since they have used people's belief systems against them. That will be a real shock & those folks will feel very betrayed & angry. I would not want to be on the receiving end of THAT! But, the perpetrators will get what they deserve then....karma sux.

The synchronicity is showing up, too. 11:11 & 1:11 on the clock every day. I've come to expect it, & better yet, accept it.

Now hoping my purpose is revealed in the same lightning speed.
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findrskeep Donating Member (367 posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 01:08 AM
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14. I agree 100% southerncrone
I'm seeing 11:11 and 1:11 everywhere I turn, along with some other numbers meaningful for me every time I turn my head it seems. You're so right about things speeding up. It truly is enough to make your head spin.

About Tucson, it's no coincidence that Gabrielle Giffords was the one to speak out about Sara Palin's cross hairs map, and then she's the one who gets shot through the head. Not only that, she's one of the few who lived. I heard she is actually a guns rights advocate. I'm waiting and hoping that when she's able to speak, that she uses what happened to her as an example of why guns need to be illegal in this country. As if we actually need another reason, but apparently we do.

And yes, things will get more and more bazaar as we go, but it sure does help to know the "why" of it, doesn't it? I can only imagine what it must be like to see all these seemingly crazy things going on and not have a clue why...but that's assuming that people are actually noticing the absurdity of what's happening around them. Maybe you don't notice until you wake up..I don't know. Interesting times huh? lol.
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OneGrassRoot Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 10:32 AM
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15. Jumping in at random -- Karen Bishop

These are amazing times for sure. I saw that you wrote elsewhere (or maybe it was kimmers?), saying that things you read six months ago are only now resonating.

I agree. :) I actually feel different from day to day; learning to surf that wave is a huge challenge, but I don't sense it's going to level out any time soon. I'm trying to view it as an exciting, rather than disconcerting, evolutionary development, and try to remind myself I have the opportunity to choose anew in each moment.

Easier said than done.

Speaking of Karen Bishop, who was mentioned in one of the more recent threads, I decided to go back and read her last three postings. I used to really resonate with Karen. I don't read anyone's words to receive guidance, per se, but to simply observe what others are experiencing and sometimes it can result in an "aha" moment for me, to see my own experience in a new light. In the last year or so I just wasn't getting anything out of Karen's sharings.

However, I'm reading her post from September 2010 now and, in hindsight, definitely am getting more from it this time around.

Here they are in case others are looking for her most recent sharings:

http://spiritlibrary.com/karen-bishop

:grouphug:

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Melissa G Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 04:15 PM
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23. Thanks for this! The lines below really resonated with my experience.
"If you are an over-giver or over-helper, you will be encouraged to discontinue this practice, as it is now all about self and center without reaching (and always has been). If you are a perfectionist and like things the best that they can be, you will be encouraged to see that everything is really all about love and that is all that really matters. If you have believed that you are here to make something happen on the planet and to make change, you will be encouraged to realize that you are simply here to experience and create and love one another. These are but a few of the higher states of being that we are naturally being pushed and shoved into now."

http://spiritlibrary.com/karen-bishop/karen-bishops-energy-update-1-11-11

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OneGrassRoot Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 09:32 AM
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30. ...
:hi:

:hug:

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Melissa G Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 12:28 PM
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31. !
:hi:

:hug:
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3littlebirds Donating Member (51 posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 09:13 AM
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29. I agree southerncrone
Been seeing the numbers alot also. Especially 111 and 11:11. And that's just it, I'm accepting it all, seeing events differently .
'
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southerncrone Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Jan-25-11 12:14 AM
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36. Welcome to DU--ASAH, 3littlebirds!
Or is it Welcome Back?
:hi:
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AC_Mem Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 11:59 PM
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28. Lots of activity - yes
I agree with you. Yesterday BOTH of my grandchildren at different times of the day came to me telling me that they felt spirits. I hadn't said anything to them because I don't want to scare them, but I've been feeling them around me and actually SEEING things in the past week - and especially yesterday.

My granddaughter Skylar said that she hears them calling her name and talking to her, my grandson came to me last night and said he felt spirits in his room. Then last night I was sitting on the couch and saw someone walk across the room, I almost couldn't believe my eyes. I've seen it before but if you have ever seen a spirit, you know what I mean, it is unnerving when it happens :)

I think that the veil is becoming thinner - SOMETHING is happening and it appears that it is quickly accelerating.

Annette
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davsand Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 01:24 PM
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32. I agree. My 13 year old is seeing them too.
Material Girl told me the other night that she woke up to a spirit in her room. She said it was a female entity and it did not give her any feeling of fear or threat--only comfort. She said she woke to find the entity sitting by her on the bed stroking her arm. I have to admit, I have been aware they are around more lately, but even I have not felt anything on a physical level. That had to have been intense.

The activity level seems to be awful high lately.



Laura
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elleng Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 02:09 PM
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17. me 2 (aquarian) + feeling nothing good at the moment.
:-(
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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 02:07 PM
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16. The recent Jupiter conj with Uranus
was in his solar (no birth time) 2nd house, this obviously had to do with "his value system" being rocked and enlightened, I think
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southerncrone Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Fri Jan-21-11 11:58 PM
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11. This hits me right between the eyes, Rick!
It helps explain my recent positive change. Being on the Scorp/Sag cusp, that placed me in the traditional Okeefenokee(Ophiuchus)sign. (My pet name of the 13th sign.) But the "new" alignment sent me back to Libra. Scorps KNOW things.....being a Libra was not who I am........no fooling a Scorp.

Rick, using your Scorpio archetype we could be seeing all 3 Scorpio archetypes in transition.
I'm thinking this could be the Scorpio mythical Phoenix rising out of the ashes. Humanity is finally rising out of the lower-world mess that we have created, when we were acting like the nasty Scorpion. When the Phoenix rises, he will fly like the Eagle, the other archetype.

Let's face it, Pluto is a powerful "planet". It was not going to take the disrespect of being "demoted".......not without winning in the end. :nuke:

Ironically, Karen Bishop's writings have always resonated w/me. Glad she is on the way back.

Well, just the ramblings of an old lady on your proposition. I could be completely off the mark. Who knows? :shrug:
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Ricochet21 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 02:14 PM
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18. Yes, I'm thinking of you and Morningglow
and what you've said to verify in my mind what I'm finalizing now about the Jup/Ura conjunction.
You are right on track. You're riding universal power. it's only foreign to us because we get used to "dullness" of
everyday life. It's not always around either! Take advantage, more soon. :hi:

No, I don't think you're off the mark; I just think that we have to be very restrained until it is revealed what's really going on in Scorpio. I have some educated guesses but must wait longer. The archetype of Scorpio is changing fast and probably more so than the other 11.

no way you are a Libra, period. And it made me a Sag, no way.
Those dates of the 13 signs were published many years ago.
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MorningGlow Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 02:19 PM
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19. Oh hai
Edited on Sat Jan-22-11 02:20 PM by MorningGlow
My ears were burning...or my random psychic ability just kicked in! :hi: :rofl:

Anyway, really enjoying this analysis, Rick--there's nothing more enjoyable than ASAHers "thinking out loud" and having cool insights/ making neat discoveries on the fly! This is so fascinating. I'm not sure what I thought the shift would be like--it's like being enmeshed in the real activity made me completely forget my speculations--but I don't think it was this...not that that's a bad thing--!

On edit: grammar an' stuffs
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mysticalchick Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 03:15 PM
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20. Stepping into some strong energies over here :)
I've been reminded that I need to radiate my light in all that I do now - not just when I'm doing sessions with clients (where it's easy for me to step into that energy). My friend has long called me the "High Priestess of Woo Woo" and while it made me laugh, I am starting to understand the energy of the High Priestess. I've kept that under wraps for so so so long that letting it out to shine feels scary but it's what I have to do.

My intention for this year was to move my intuitive practice into full time so that I can release my need for the current day job. As always, the Universe hears and answers and I am getting lots of opportunities to shift things around fast so that can happen.

Interesting times, indeed.

PS: Rick, I have no idea how to find where my Aries/Aquarius is on my chart. :(
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3littlebirds Donating Member (51 posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 03:46 PM
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21. Things are definetly different
I noticed a big change the past few days. I can't explain it, I've just gotten into all of this, so I'm not so in tune to it all. but something is very different. It mostly hits me when I'm outside which lately isn't much, with the cold. On the drive home last night I said to myself this is so great! What is so great? I don't know, but it feels good. Things are still the same as they were a month ago, Which at that time I thought they were unbearable, but I feel differently towards it, I feel a power or something. today coming home from some errands I thought if anyone else felt this, things have changed. I realized there is no more waiting it is here, I just have to jump in. than I came home and saw this post. I don't want to figure it out, that screws me up, I need to just feel it as much as possible and go with the flow.

Also while I'm here, is there anyone in the central jersey area that knows of an intuitive or energy reader, or something on that line, that I can go to. I still would like some answers to some past problems, I would greatly appreciate it.
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Howler Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 04:42 PM
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25.  3littlebirds .
Mystical Chick is an excellent reader. The very best.
And you won't have too go out in the freezing cold. :):hi:
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mysticalchick Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 07:15 PM
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26. Thank you, Howler!
I appreciate the props! :) Your energy was so high and vibrant that I had to go hug a tree after our session because I was out there flying around in the ether from it! Loved talking to you.

Practically Intuitive is growing at a great pace and I am so thrilled! I've added healing sessions cutting cords of attachment and it's been so amazing to see (from a practitioner standpoint) the growth that comes out of just one session. It really feels like the right direction to go, along with my readings and coaching work.


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Howler Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 07:35 PM
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27. I love Love LOVE!!!!
Your Practically Intuitive site!
I ALWAYS learn something and you always give food for thought.
I am looking forward to another reading in a couple of months.
Though I'm thinking about Two sessions because Cutting cords of Attachment sounds like a very profound experience.
:thumbsup: :hi: :hug: :yourock:
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3littlebirds Donating Member (51 posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 03:50 PM
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22. cleaning
also I'm cleaning like crazy, never did that in my life. don't know where that comes from.
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Melissa G Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sat Jan-22-11 04:20 PM
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24. Yeah, cleaning is not natural to me either. Purging obstacles is the message I keep getting. n/t
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northernlights Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 01:24 PM
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33. as a sun-sign Scorpio, I'd say think sign of the phoenix
Edited on Sun Jan-23-11 01:25 PM by northernlights
Remembering that the symbol of the evolved scorpio is the sign of the phoenix, the bird that rises from its own ashes.

First we have to burn up completely. Every cell. Only than can we regenerate. Exquisitely painful.

First, for me, clinical training is not going well. School did not go well -- I frankly hated the clinical courses. At first I chalked it up to total exhaustion. But after I was able to quit my job, it just continued to be awful. I desperately hoped to avoid the clinical training, and it has been just awful. They aren't satisfied unless you are run into the ground all day, 7 days/week. I feel lied to, used, abused, manipulated. They, of course, are prepared for this and are in defensive mode. I don't care. I have my ticket out. I will not go through this again, ever. Hopefully I'll be able to quit by March, come hell or high water. I don't expect it to lead to work anyway -- hospitals are reducing staff, not adding. I just want the summer and fall to restructure before the student loans come due. Hopefully I'll be able to dump the house by then to pay off the loans and walk away from this latest fiasco.

Second, some of you may remember that 3 years ago (fall 07-spring 08) the love of my life, also sun sign scorpio, returned in my dreams and in trances, interrupting me in class and hanging with me for conversations to break up my studying. And just as it looked as though we would get together irl, something happened that took him away again. He told me not to come find him, he couldn't be with me right now. He couldn't/wouldn't tell me what was happening. The economy was just blowing apart and so I thought maybe something was going on business-wise that required his full attention. Two months later, I sat with a group going through the FAFSA form, sweating bullets, not wanting to take on debt and he appeard and told me he wanted to take care of me. It gave me the courage to sign. And then two months later, exhausted, I had the dream in which we met on a beach and I collapsed on the beach and a group of shaman surrounded me chanting, the leader explained to him that I had an endocrine disorder...all while I sank into a calm, warm sea, was greeted by a silent old man and was heading toward a white light when I heard him break down sobbing and begging me not to leave him. His voice pulled me back into life, he helped me to my feet and we walked across the beach together.

I had not heard from him since then and thought maybe he had appeared to "let me down" gently and tie up loose ends, or maybe he was a cad, or maybe they were just psychological dreams to help me heal the wounds left from our relationship. In recent months I woke up a couple times having sensed we'd made love in the deepest sleeps. But I googled and found no word of him. Once not long ago I had an odd dream -- he told me he had a billion dollars. we were walking down a street as he was talking, stepping over the bodies of naked people sitting and lying on the sidewalk. I told him, don't brag to me about your money. tell me what you are doing with it. These people are not deadbeats. They are desperate. They need jobs; they need work. And then I woke up.

And then last week we dreamed together in later morning, for a couple hours. I woke several times -- to let the dogs out, to let the dogs in -- and immediately would fall back to sleep and still be in his arms.

So I googled him again. This time I found some answers. My love was diagnosed with familiar (genetic, early onset) alzheimers. I'm not sure exactly when, but suspect it may have been in the fall of 07. In the spring of 09 it progressed enough that he moved to a nursing home with 24 hour supervision. :cry: :cry: :cry: I have spent the past week devastated.

I awoke this morning with some sense of calm. I remember that throughout our relationship when I couldn't contact him, it was because he was so busy. And I think he is very busy now, even as his brain is dying, starting his new life whatever it is going to be. I wonder if that odd dream was a glimpse of a future life or past life...or we just were together in his confused mind...


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northernlights Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 02:29 PM
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34. anyway, my point was (which I forgot to add)
that I think the attacks on Scorpio from without may represent or mirror the disintegration of our lives from within...
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OneGrassRoot Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Sun Jan-23-11 03:29 PM
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35. Oh my goodness, NL.....
Oh my goodness...:cry:

You have me in tears. What an amazing journey you've had in such an unusual, magickal way with this man. Maybe one day if you have time and energy, and are so inclined, you'll write the full story down, from the start. You're a natural storyteller. Maybe it would be cathartic for you.

I am so very, very sorry. I can only imagine how devastated you are.

:cry:

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

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Delphinus Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Jan-25-11 07:12 AM
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37. Ooh,
what a turn of events! :cry: :hug:
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MorningGlow Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Jan-25-11 07:12 PM
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38. Omigosh, NL!
:hug:

What a shocking thing to learn about someone who appears to be your soulmate. :cry: I got the impression, while reading your post, that he is indeed visiting you; when the traditional brain alters and the usual methods of interacting with the "real" world break down, as it does with Alzheimer's, alternate means of communication/realms of perception fire up.

And I hope this doesn't come out wrong, but may I just say that your story is the stuff of an amazing fantasy/paranormal romance film. I hope that doesn't offend you; I don't mean to be disrespectful. It's just that it reads like the plot of a wonderful tearjerker of a movie.

Anyway, I hope you are still able to communicate with him--keep trying to reach out once in a while?--and that you both find a measure of peace before he passes. One thing that might help is if the two of you make plans for your "next" life together; it's very comforting and affords some closure. If you can't "find" the actual him while meditating/reaching out, just have your higher self talk to his higher self. I did this with an ex a while back--we couldn't be together in this lifetime (although it wasn't a life or death situation like yours). I was quite upset, but after we "chatted" and made plans, I felt a whole lot better and was able to let the current situation go. Might be worth a try, if you need something like that. :hug:
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I Have A Dream Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Jan-25-11 08:41 PM
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39. Wow. I have no words, NL.
:(

:hug:

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NuttyFluffers Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Wed Jan-26-11 10:51 AM
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40. oh my goodness! what a gut-wrenching turn of events.
however, i have noticed some of the most intense loves (often "twin-flame soul mates") tend to be far too much for this world and end early. usually they impart a great wisdom, but at an agonizing cost. maybe it's the universe's way of sugar making the medicine go down? but yea, 2nd or 3rd tier soul mates tend to be more stable on this planet. whether that continues in the transition is another matter of which i have no idea.

doesn't help the heartbreak, but that's been my observation over the years. however, "breaking up" against both of your wills by greater circumstances feels even more poignant than a regular breakup. it's like being cheated after winning the lottery; feels very 'star-crossed lovers.' oh, why must the bitterest pills be administered by those we love? perhaps because we would never take it any other way? i don't know... perhaps the only meaning is that we imprint ourselves, and that's what carries us through.
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PhillyGurl Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Wed Jan-26-11 06:29 PM
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41. Definitely true
I'm finding it easier to let go of the past, and just move forward, whatever happens. And I find myself dreaming a bit too, of possibilities for the future. I thank the universe I now have a job and medical insurance, but I can relax a little more these days. Oct-after Jan 1st was very hard. Glad that is over!!
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