What's the point...? Why even bother...

[FirstLight]

I am a little overwhelmed today, not so much emotional as I am NUMB.

Unemployment, evil rethugs in the house, budget, war, infrastructure crumbling, climate change getting worse, crops in jeopardy, e coli outbreak, scientists messing with 'anti-matter', fukushima worsening daily, and more and more evidence of our crumbling paradigms and illusions of a world in order...
so why should i even bother trying to get a job and "do" this thing?
it's all just a breath away from crumbling anyway, so trying to make my life fit into the neat little box is no longer an option.
ya, so i need to keep paying the bills and keep a roof over my head, etc... but how long is this going to work?
how long before the state runs out of food stamps? how long before the things we take for granted start to dissappear?

i don't feel like it's a panic place i am coming from....it is just this feeling of ultimate futility

my sister sends me job notices, and I can't even get excited about any options - it's like a life that I just can't buy into.
honestly, after this winter and the way the climate is shifting up here in the Mtns, i am thinking I should find a place to move...
but what would that accomplish, when my tribe and my backup of people and families are HERE
then again, if the grow season gets any shorter, we would surely starve in the face of the coming decline of civilization.

some days, it just seems so obvious to me that this world is living on borrowed time, i see it so clearly it just seems ridiculous to be invested.
like the threads of time and space are right there in front of me and i can see that THIS way is going nowhere
and I almost wish it would hurry up and crumble, even though i am ill prepared...just because it's so maddening to keep playing along.

does this make ANY sense?

[PinkTiger]

1. Yes -

You are mirroring what I've been saying. Here's my two cents:
We can't take on the world's woes right now, and shouldn't try. Global warming, the Congress, President Obama, Sarah Palin, the economy at large -- all that has to wait in the wings. I've been telling myself to get off the pity pot for days. (LOL)
Here's the deal the way I see it: We - you and me - we have to take care of ourselves right now. And our close loved ones. Nobody else is going to. It's kind of like the deal with the mask that comes down from the airplane seat - put yours on first, then help the others.
I've been having the same problems with the options - out of work for two years and nothing looks good. Right now, I think the important thing is to do something. It doesn't have to be THE JOB. It can just be a transition job. Or something.

What do you think?

[FirstLight]

2. doing...

yes, i totally get that we should be taking care of our own...in fact it is really the only thing we have any control over is how we relate to our loved ones and just getting by...

on the other hand, it's that big picture thing that gets in the way sometimes. Job searching has really become such an exercise in futility. I am focusing on freelance work because it is really all i can bring myself to do...any kind of job that would require any more of a committment is a joke to me. I honestly don't think I could bullshit my way through an interview...not that i have even gotten to the interview process anyway.
I can only focus on getting myself healthy and getting my house in order and taking care of immediate things...gardening food, cleaning out the garage, etc, are really the only things that DON'T feel stupid....

[Delphinus]

16. FirstLight,

after reading what you just wrote, I'm wondering if you're truly suffering from depression? A major episode. Is that possible?

:hug:

[DeSwiss]

3. I hope this helps.....

AFFIRMATIONS -

I now draw forward wisdom to dispel all confusion and insecurity.

I remain balanced at all times, connected to the light of the Creator.

I am free from limitations, I experience freedom.

I open my heart completely to love and to the loving embrace of the Creator.

I am now healed physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

I accept the blessings of the Creator in all forms.

I attract all that I desire and need into my reality.

I understand the wise direction of my soul and guides.

I now own and understand my amazing spiritual and physical skills and talents.

I am now one with the Creator; I converse with and bathe in the light of the Creator.


Through our communication today not only did we want to offer you valuable affirmations that you could use in your daily life but we also wished to remind you of how wonderful your current reality actually is. You are blessed completely with such abundance, so many opportunities, possibilities and good things. You are already everything that we have spoken about today. If you can remember this always then you can transform your reality even further. We realise that many people become so locked into their physical reality and the negative situations that are occurring, they forget to acknowledge, appreciate and give thanks to the wonderful blessings that they receive naturally daily.

You are abundant in so many more ways than we have stated today. Allow yourself to write down and document the blessings that are with you right now, the wonderful abundant energies and experiences that flow into your reality. It is important to have the mentality that you are also all that you wish to be right now. People often have dreams or goals and they perceive that time will aid achievement. Time is an illusion and was only created to bring structure to your physical reality. It is not time that allows your dreams to manifest but gradual understanding that you are already all that you dream of. This understanding comes gradually because you allow or desire it to, but it doesn’t have to be a gradual process and can manifest instantly, there is simply a need to dissolve the habit and create a new pattern of generating, manifesting and awakening energies from within you.

We ask that you do not allow yourself to feel negative about your reality whatever your circumstance because we want you to see the many blessings that are already with you. With this alteration in the way that you perceive your reality, you will alter all negative situations as you draw the love of the Creator deeper into your reality and being. We ask that you adopt an existence and perception that you live in a reality that is abundantly blessed. Accept whole heartily that you are blessed by the Creator and are deserving of these blessings. Know that you can call upon blessings to shower over and through your being. Your reality is beautiful as it is now; take your focus away from the negativity, your loss, what you do not have and honour the abundance that is within and around you. Allowing this state of existence to become a pattern will encourage a wealth of abundance in all forms to flow into your reality with ease and perfection.

It is important that humanity begins to notice and accept how blessed they are, how abundant and loved they are because this will break a negative pattern that is etched within the consciousness of many on the Earth. Many people still hold onto the belief that they are not worthy of the blessings, energy and love of the Creator. Some believe it is immoral to be abundant in all ways when devoting oneself to the Creator. Others believe that negative situations and experience require and should be given more focus and attention than positive experiences. Patterns of resisting the abundance of the Creator or ignoring the blessings of the Creator now must be dissolved; it is the presence of love that is encouraging this alteration. Love encourages appreciation and acceptance. Allow yourself to begin to believe in the love of the Creator by being thankful for and honouring your current reality for the abundant blessing that it is.

Let yourself see your reality and self in the light of truth.

With abundant blessings,

Mother Mary and Master El Morya

http://lightworkers.org/channeling/132214/thoughts-your-current-reality-mother-mary-and-master-el-morya

[FirstLight]

5. good stuff, need to read over & over

Maybe I will print it out and put it next to my angel candle!

I am also surrounded by bad weather and physical stuff that makes my vibration and energy lower, so I know that is a part of this perception...

thanks for sharing, I am glad we have this place to vent as well
:hug:

[DeSwiss]

13. What's happening now.....

...is draining for many. Our pasts are being dredged-up to the surface of our lives, so they can be dealt with and then ultimately released. I know, letting go ain't easy.

But the old ways, the old thinking, and the old solutions that we've grown accustomed to won't work where we're heading. Nothing is hidden in the higher realms, and nothing is withheld. And many are finding the density of deception, of imbalance and of inequality -- our world of 3D darkness that we've grown used to, difficult and unsettling to say the least. It is becoming intolerable. What we once could live with, many can no longer stand. Me too.

But we can't hold onto this anger and sadness. We have to let it go as well. And yet it's not easy to let go of the tried and true answers. To let go of what has worked for us all our lives. Of what is familiar and comfortable and understood. But all life on Earth is in the midst of momentous change. The world is in flux right now. And so too are our lives. The cleansing is necessary and will be completed no matter what.

Remember that there is strength in numbers. And so those of like-mind should stick together. They should meditate together. They should envision the world that they want -- together.

- And with that in mind I send the Light of Unconditional Love to you, with the knowledge that the answers we seek are to be found only within us. Peace.



Please read:
http://lightworkers.org/channeling/133250/hilarions-weekly-message-2011-june-5-12-2011">Hilarion's Weekly Message 2011 June 5-12, 2011
http://lightworkers.org/channeling/133083/salusa-3-june-2011">A Message From SaLuSa 3-June-2011

[OneGrassRoot]

17. I agree. Thank you....

:hug:

But we can't hold onto this anger and sadness. We have to let it go as well. And yet it's not easy to let go of the tried and true answers. To let go of what has worked for us all our lives. Of what is familiar and comfortable and understood. But all life on Earth is in the midst of momentous change. The world is in flux right now. And so too are our lives. The cleansing is necessary and will be completed no matter what.

Remember that there is strength in numbers. And so those of like-mind should stick together. They should meditate together. They should envision the world that they want -- together.

Sadly, what is "familiar and comfortable and understood" for so many is hopelessness and feeling defeated. I grew up surrounded by that attitude and have never understood how someone can exist in that state of mind, and heart, for so long. I believe we all feel it, at times more than others, but to stay there feels like a self-fulfilling prophecy. The hopelessness becomes an entity in and of itself, just as pain does. People identify with it. If they let go of it for any length of time, they tend to lose themselves.

I wish we'd all lose ourselves more. ;)

"those of like-mind should stick together. They should meditate together. They should envision the world that they want -- together."

I agree wholeheartedly. Even if someone isn't in a mode to do and take action about things beyond their own personal life -- if they're even ready to do that -- but feel they may eventually want to dream and imagine and brainstorm how life might possibly get better, I invite you to join me at Wishadoo. I'll create a special discussion group -- a non-action group...a Being group. Or maybe the private ASAH group will suffice. ;)

Online public messageboards really are, at least for this time period, a cesspool of whining and negativity with no desire whatsoever by most members to create a positive alternative. The negativity feeds on itself and is like quicksand, and I choose to remove myself from it beyond staying informed. I see the negativity and challenges and encounter it in my daily life plenty...I'm not hiding my head in the sand...I simply don't personally understand how it serves a purpose or alleviates suffering in any way to stay mired in it after an initial venting.

:shrug:

So I send good thoughts to ASAHers and wish everyone well. If I can help in any way, let me know, but I won't be checking in daily as I normally would and thus won't see posts in a timely manner.

Be well, be blessed.....

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

[kimmerspixelated]

7. Wow, Deswiss,

I always look forward to your posts and replies. Such a wealth of good, inspiring information.

[DeSwiss]

14. Thank you so much......

[Saokymo]

4. You're not alone in these thoughts at all.

I've been feeling much the same way these past few weeks and trying very hard (with mixed success) to not take out the aggravation on those around me. Yet as much as I want to bust out of the cycle, I have to keep plodding along day in and day out just to keep my home life stable. It's maddening.

At least we have a safe space online we can all vent to try and ease some of the burden. :hug:

[Manifestor_of_Light]

6. Yes, it does.

I live out in the country and I am sick of arguing with the bigots around here. They blame everything on "them Messicans" and our black president.

So I have less psychic pollution than there is in the city with all the people that "scurry" (thank you Frank Zappa!). But far less interaction with people.

I need to interact with people but it really is tough not being around people who share my values.

[LiberalEsto]

8. I've been having similar feelings lately

sigh

[The Blue Flower]

9. Same feeling, my own different take on it

I know that feeling of futility. Being out of work for over two years also, I've had no success in getting past the interviews. Of course, I am over 60, so what should I expect, right? It's clear to me that we're in a different mode now. We're so used to being proactive and love getting into things and pushing to make a difference. After all the marching, protests, letters, and political activism, I think the only difference I have the power to make now is in my immediate home, family, and neighborhood. To me, this understanding lifts a burden I've felt to try to "do something" ever since the presidential election of 2000. If matters are out of my hands, so be it. I have a garden to plant on my balcony. People to take care of at the food pantry and soup kitchen. My family. I have a novel to write. I'm glad to know I can't be expected to change the world. What I will do now is define my radius of effectiveness and work within that. Perhaps my acceptance will propagate a ripple of calm that can reach beyond me and ultimately have some effect in the larger world. When it's time to act again, the open heart I am cultivating during this time of inwardness will show me how and where.

[OneGrassRoot]

10. That's the most eloquent, inspiring thing I've read in quite a while....

Thank you.

"When it's time to act again, the open heart I am cultivating during this time of inwardness will show me how and where."

Interestingly, I just wrote elsewhere that it feels as though gathering people to "do" is rather futile right now, and I feel more led to cultivate the opening of hearts.

:hug:

[The Blue Flower]

11. Thank YOU

Kind of you to say so.

[FirstLight]

12. that is *so* right on...

Cultivating Hearts... and our own hearts as well...

the outside world is going to take it's own time and do it's own thing...meanwhile we keep on keeping on, and i guess remembering the little effects I can make are best in the overwhelmingness of it all..

[lildreamer316]

15. The key is this:

"....define my radius of effectiveness and work within that...."
Yes yes yes. Thank you!

[Fire Walk With Me]

18. Detach. And BREATH.

:hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

19. Oh, and

;);););););)