Kundalini, one's path and a desire for discussion, some clarifications

[eilen]

FDR and Blue Iris have share a bit about their Kundalini rising some years ago. She (Blue) connected this with some transits in her chart. I am not very educated in this energy except that I have tried to connect to or raise this energy in yoga meditation in the past. I am not one of those people who can literally see energy or entities or anything like that. When I hang out with my friends who can, it is kind of disconcerting. What I get is messages spoken inside my head occasionally which really requires no effort or work on my part except to listen/pay attention and intuition/feeling about stuff (often whether something planned is going to actually happen or a feeling something is about to change which is kind of funny because things always change yet people are constantly surprised by that).

I have taken a first leve Reiki but have not really practiced it since I was attuned. What I do with people at my job is I try to project healing, positive, loving light on them as I interact with them. It is my intention that they feel cared for. If they are open to it, they will, if they are hostile and closed, they probably don't. I also try to listen to what they say to me because in there, is usually a message of what they are looking for/need. Some tell me they are ready to be done with their life/struggle and don't wish to understand or learn to be well. Others tell me they need good information on how to be well and still others tell me that they are too invested in being angry, hurt, scared or needed to expend the energy to be well and they are not ready yet. Most of my healing is paying attention, teaching, encouraging with a loving intention.

In 2005-2006 I cared for my dying father and then went back to work for 7 months only to find I was quite burnt out and left the job in August of 2006. I did not, I could not even conceive of working again in the same or similar capacity for about 4 years. I was kind of empty about it. For the first 6 months I was an emotional basketcase, crying inappropriately in public, etc. This is the time I delved more into new age type books and was attuned. I had no idea what to do with my life at this point. I immersed myself into creativity, writing, painting, sewing. Anyway, I went back to work as a nurse in 2009. I lasted 8 months in that job but it was not that I couldn't do it, I just didn't want to. I don't like bringing work home. Then I started in 2010 at the hospital in an ancillary role. Over the year I started to yearn to be back at the bedside and it became compelling this summer. So much that I applied for a job and with the help of all you good people here -- Whoopie! I have been offered the job and accepted.

So anyway, here I am. I guess I needed a break but what for? I tried like hell to figure out what am I supposed to do now and pursuing one avenue after another only to be shut down, finding a dead end. No matter how I worked at the meditation and reiki, with minerals etc. I felt blocked. I was mired in inertia. Not that I didn't learn any lessons about people during this time. I guess the influence of Uranus, Neptune and Chiron are what prepared me this summer. However--and I know this is long winded (sorry)-- For those that have had such experiences as a rise in Kundalini, and now are able to receive guidance from guides and can see the energy of things.... has this made your experience less confusing or more so? Do things seem clearer to you now or has it made it more complicated to see where you should plant your next step? Do you feel you have a greater capability to provide comfort and healing? My other questions are in respect to this phenomena just "happening" or did you do work on it? (were you as clueless as me?); did you already experience those gifts of seeing and hearing (entities, energy) that my friends seem to? Please feel free to post your thoughts on this even if you haven't had that raise in Kundalini.

[FDRLincoln]

1. kundalini

The first six months after my K rise were about 95% bliss, ecstasy, and universal love. I received validated messages from dead people. I felt energy shooting out of my hands, and if I touched someone with my hands, it would alleviate their pain and cure their health problems (in one case, permanently). I was surrounded most of the time by what looked (to other people) like a soft glow of light...even a friend who is an atheist and who didn't know that I was experiencing anything strange commented on it. Another friend (who we didn't reveal the breakthrough to) experienced, um...sexual arousal if she was in my presence and became extremely flirtatious, which had never happened before.

Gradually those effects faded. I still "feel" the energy within me most of the time. I still get flows of ecstasy and joy, but it is not constant now and not as strong. I no longer "glow". I can still allievate other people's pain with touch, but not as easily or as consistently or as strongly.

All sorts of dark things have risen to my consciousness, problems in my past that I wasn't aware of, recovered dark memories from childhood. I've had two serious depressive bouts since the breakthrough and at times in the spring of 2009 and again this past spring I felt like I was going to die of grief.

I continue to have dreams with intense spiritual imagery, sometimes with precognitive features.

[FDRLincoln]

2. trigger

As for what triggered the Kundalini rise...a brief synopsis.

1) In the spring of 2006 I had two close relatives die within a month of each other. Both times I was at their death bed and watched them die. At the same time, I almost lost my job, was under massive amounts of financial stress, and my newborn baby had to have an operation.
2) I have always been interested in spirituality, but for several years before the breakthrough, I was "spiritually numb" and felt stuck and unable to progress.
3) In the summer of 2006 I began to get "glimmers," little surges of energy in me that would last a few seconds. At the time, despite my spiritual reading, I had only vaguely heard of kundalini and didn't know much about it. I was NOT involved in any sort of meditation or yoga routine at that point, and was certainly not trying to raise it.
4) In September, 2006, I did something I never did before. I was really stressed out and unhappy. At my wife's suggestion, I got a lap dance at a strip club. Sorry if that is sexist or tacky...it was not something I had ever done, but the idea popped in my head one day, and my wife said "go do it."
5) I came home from that looking "weird" my wife said. She said it looked to her like I was a changed man. I felt weird inside, like something broke loose.
6) I woke up at 5 am the next morning, swimming in total, absolute, bliss, Universal Love. The glow of light started at that point. Poetry flowed....I wrote dozens of poems over the next few months. I started to get by on 2-3 hours of sleep per night. All the other symptoms I described started then. I had a couple of out-of-body experiences, vivid dreams, hearing voices of love and comfort. All forms of guilt melted away, and for awhile fear did too, although eventually FEAR came back. Guilt never did though.
7) I eventually realized it was kundalini. I had been building up to it all spring, and then that lap dance knocked some piece of second chakra resistance away inside of me and let the energy flow.
8) I eventually found a transpersonal psychiatrist, a skilled psychic and an energy worker to work with and they have helped me tremendously.
9) It is a very difficult journey. My wife has been wonderful through most of it, and I have not been easy to deal with at times.

[eilen]

3. Thank you for sharing your experience.

It sound very intense and life changing. I hope that the fear goes away again.

[rucognizant]

5. I too was clueless.

I began to do reiki for a friend who was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. ( I had studied reiki 1 & 2, 8 years prior but never utilized it. It happened to coincide with " A total solar eclipse occurred on July 22, 2009. It was the longest total solar eclipse during the 21st century, not to be surpassed until 13 June 2132.<1> It lasted a maximum of 6 minutes and 39 seconds off the coast of Southeast Asia,"Wikipedia.
And it was conjunct my Natal Pluto in Cancer 2nd House, trine Pisces Jupiter 10th house, and widely trine Scorpio Moon in the 6th house ( house of health!) My GrandE arth trine Sun, Uranus, Neptune, Mars sextile or close it, to the Water trine planets.
Ironically, I didn't have a good source to help me interpret it at the time. HERE, 2 years & one month later is the best interpretation I have found yet, and the effects are still happening, for another year.

http://www.opednews.com/articles/Cancer-New-Moon-Solar-Ecli-by-Cathy-Lynn-Pagano-090716-125.html

The Sabian SYmbol for 30o Cancer is A Daughter of the American Revolution. I AM THAT! And the person I am channeling healing to, is a wealth of Democratic/Political/Historic information, needed HERE!
I NEVER had any interest or desire to go into medicine. Didn't bind my cats, dogs, dolls with bandages....no siree, they were thesbians in costume, world travelers, artists, dancers..................
But here I am 2 years in; with 6 reiki patients now, and comforting/healing those who are fearful because of this travesty of a political climate/corporatocracy!
The Kundalini.............I didn't understand at all..........was mostly joy and humor, as well as the very painful refining fires of transformation.
ANd I thank you Metta for your post below to the kundalini teacher..it is most enlightening! Ad for your kind & understanding explaination! I am grateful ANd Thank you Goddess. Things I need to know are placed in front of me!

[Metta]

4. Some stuff.

Without a personal consultation, it appears that your fear might be resistance to deeper levels of letting go of stuff that no longer serves you. You could remedy that with a reversing the resistance affirmation. It also very well could be that you've outgrown your reiki implants which is very common, so they'd now be acting as limits rather than portals.

Kundalini will amplify what you're going through so, what seem like inappropriate emotional responses are just the amperage of k hitting your blocks or attachments. It forces you to walk the razor's edge and focus on other stuff rather than suffering which because it amplifies what you're experiencing.

As far as gifts, everyone gets something different depending on what they're ready to hold.

One way out is to surrender *everything* so you can get back insights that are beneath what you're experiencing. Surrender and saying "Thank you."

You may find something helpful here - http://kundalini-teacher.com/sitemap.php?searchresult=1&sstring=site+map

[GliderGuider]

6. Here's my experience.

I experienced a Kundalini awakening a few years ago as part of an ongoing awakening/transition process that had begun a couple of years before. Here is the story. It's longish, but I hope you find it interesting.

I'd been slowly waking up for a couple of years, and as part of the journey I went to a weekend seminar given by the Oneness Movement from India. It was fabulous - I never enjoyed sitting on hotel ballroom chairs for three solid days so much in my life. One of the central practices of the Oneness Movement is the giving of deeksha (aka the Oneness Blessing) - a spiritual "laying on of hands" on the crown chakra. During deeksha, energy is channeled from the universal consciousness through the dual avatar Amma/Bhagawan via the deeksha giver to the recipient. The process has been documented with fMRI imaging to affect the frontal and parietal lobes of the brain in such a way as to facilitate awakening.

On the last day of the seminar the entire audience of 500 or so was treated to a very powerful kundalini visualization meditation led by an American Sikh named Guru Singh. We climbed the chakras, carried by the coiling golden snake. As we reached the crown chakra the large number of deeksha givers in the room began circulating through the audience, conferring the blessing. Instead of the usual single blessing, we received three, each from a different giver.

During the deeksha process, that lasted about 10 minutes, I began to have a vision of myself buried under layers and layers of impenetrable rock. The image I got was of myself as a miner, trapped deep underground by a cave-in, all alone, with all access to the surface cut off. I screamed and screamed, but no one heard me - I was buried too deep. I felt the mile of solid rock above me, isolating me, immobilizing me and concealing me from the world above.

At last, through a single tiny open vein in the rock I heard a distant voice asking if someone was there. I screamed back, and the voice said he would go get help. I heard more voices, then the sounds and vibrations of jackhammers as a rescue crew began to chip their way down to me. I recognized some of the voices as the facilitators of the Inner Journey transformational community that had helped with my initial breakout from a long Dark Night of the Soul a couple of years before - a rescue crew if there ever was one.

As they drilled down, I began to recognize that the rock over me had a shape, and had the growing feeling that I had folded it over myself deliberately somehow. As the rescue crew drilled closer the feeling of recognition grew stronger and stronger. And then they broke through. As the rock crumbled around me, I had a burst of realization: the landscape I was buried under, the only thing that marked my place of burial, was in the shape of my father's face.

As I thought about it I realized that I had crafted this covering - which even I had come to think of as "me" - for the most banal of reasons. I'd constructed it in the hopes of living up to my father's expectations and to ensure his and my mother's love. I'd built it from a very young age out of my father's values, interests and attitudes, so that I would look as much like him as possible. Don't get me wrong, he and my mother are truly remarkable human beings (which is why I chose to be born to them in the first place), but masks are masks. Right until that moment I hadn't even realized I was wearing one.

In the vision I struggled up out of the pit of broken rock and stood on open ground, pale and naked in the sunlight. As I looked around, I realized that everything I had thought I was, was now gone. I now had only my own face, one I had never seen before. I felt like a baby, facing the task of learning who I was and how I would deal with this world as a Self I did not yet even know.

As I stood there blinking naked in the sunlight, it happened. I remember a huge wave of joy, peace and surrender rolling over me, and at the same time a massive vibrating energy that seemed to link me to the foundations of Reality. I remember crying. A lot. I remember the golden snake curling up through my chakras, piercing my heart, whispering through my throat, licking my third eye from the inside, and poking its head exhuberantly out of my crown, in a flood of brilliant light.

It took an hour or more to become functional again. On the four hour drive home that night, I felt odd, exciting stirrings and rustlings in my head. It was as though my brain was being re-wired on the fly, from the ground up. As it progressed thought became clearer, and reactivity subsided as compassion rose.

The feeling of the shift has subsided, but it never completely left. The snake still comes when I remember to call, and I still feel the energy connection to ... well, everything. Needless to say I have not been the same since. I'm still learning who I am and what it means to live life as myself. I still forget and then remember, fall asleep and then reawaken. But it all seems so much clearer now that I have a golden one-eyed snake living in my spine.

Namaste,
Bodhi

[GliderGuider]

7. Oh yeah, what it gave me...

I'm apparently some kind of energy healer now. I think I was before as well, but now it's out in the open. Before it was just limited to giving killer footrubs... I haven't taken any formal energy training like Reiki, but that may be in the cards.

It has also opened me up so that I can hear the Universe more clearly. My Twin Flame materialized in my life as a direct result of that.

It gave me a sense of connection that is so profound that at times I feel like Everything, and other times I feel like Nothing. I am better able to see both sides of every coin (in this life there are no one-sided coins). I feel deeper joy and sharper pain - I feel like I can play life using all 88 keys now.

There is no aspect of my life it hasn't touched.

[kimmerspixelated]

8. For 10-28-11 or 12-21-2012,

It has been theorized that whatever magnetized plasma band the cosmos sends to Earth will awaken our Kundalini, thus enhancing all of our psychic and healing abilities. The shedding of our skin.
To return to who we really are.

[WhiteTara]

9. Tantric Yoga is practiced by the Dalai Lama.

and may be yours. It is called the Way of the Bodhisatva. It is about compassion and divine connection. Maybe 40 years ago, I had a disease and through yoga and pain meds, one night I loosed my Kundalini. Did it take me anywhere? Who knows, but here I am today working on my path.

[rucognizant]

10. I took a look last night back to

Lynda Hill's new moon newsletter for May 2009. It was all about healing, reiki etc. using that quote from the thread above here,
(this quote from Rumi brings to mind the wound and healing Chiron represents.“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”― Rumi;
and there I was less then 1 month away from
being plunged into a whole new world by the diagnosis of my friend! You just can't make this stuff up! If you wrote a book about it it would be rejected by the publisher as being too perfect! LOL!

[Metta]

11. If you have Reiki symbols, they will interfere with your k.

They limit and direct the k flow. I suggest burning them off in the k flame; just see them melting like wax in a fire. And say "Thank you."

[Howler]

12. The shit hit the fan when my kundilini ssssstarted to rise in

My "dirty thirties" LMAO.
I had already experienced several....shall we say....pychic experiences throughout my life but WOW!!!!in a period of five years they manifested so intensely that the people around me could see,feel,and experience these phenomenon's too.
a couple of bizarre healings,a sky opening up in a park full of people and pouring down light, love, benevolence,comfort and information.Knocking me right off my feet on me butt.LOL!

And several even more intense experiences led me to seek out rieki and healing touch.

I call the sleeplessness "The quickening" it happens when the serpent rises,or a major growth spurt occurs. (or a major phenom happens)
In my experience when it first happens its always intense and confusing till it all shakes down and settles into your resonance.Then and only then can you begin to truly discern what has been given.

Things have become clearer yet complicated...LOL! But yes I think I do have a greater capacity to provide comfort and healing to others.
The things I'm learning now are self nurterance and GROUNDING! LMAO!!! Most healers that I know never think to give themselves healing until last!
Ass back-wards! I know!!!! I guess its just the nature of the beast!!! snort!:shrug: