Good grief, I feel really weird

[MorningGlow]

Somebody please tell me this is external stuff influencing my innards, because I'd hate to think this is all coming from me! :crazy:

I'm not even sure how to describe it. It's like...I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Very jumpy. Restless. Often tearful. (I should note that I don't have a history of depression. I was PMSing, but that was days ago. And my thyroid and hormone levels are staying nice and level.)

I want to go back to bed but I can't sleep. Oh--and still having nasty nightmares, too--last night it was one where I was in a car with my mom and she stopped in the middle of the road and caused an accident (the car that was trying to pass her hit an oncoming car head on), then when she started moving again she sideswiped another car for YARDS. I keep yelling at her to stop, but she kept going, so I finally got control of the car somehow.

I want to go out, but then again I don't want to leave the house. I want to talk to friends, but then again I don't feel like being around people. Gaaah!

Plus, as I mentioned in...Rick's thread, I think...I have this feeling like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Huge amount of anxiety/anticipation, but not for anything good, or so it feels, anyway.

To be blunt, I feel like I'm losing my mind! Again: GAAAAHHH!

So...yanno... :wtf:

:banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead:

[Sanity Claws]

1. The energies out there are weird

:hug:

[MorningGlow]

6. ...

:hug:

This too shall pass, right?

[FirstLight]

2. hey twin...

sounds like my yesterday, since mid-last week...
been weepy, no motivated, feeling whelmed, like i need to DO something, but everything is just too much, wanna go to bed in the middle of the day, sleeping bad at night, etc...sound familiar?

so here's the skinny: it's a very 'whelming' energy right now...the feelings of futility, of fear are so heavy that they are hitting us like a solar flare seeping through our very cells... (oh, solar flares, may be good to look up too)
The balance of equinox is triggering our need for balance and lighting up what is not
(lucie always says, if the planet is only in perfect balance twice a year, how can we expect to be better than that!? lol)

The biggest thing to remember is that 'in the spirit-realm, there is no dis-ease'
(that was given to me from the Medicine Woman this weekend) ..and she meant it on a physical level as well as emotional.

try to get back to your place of neutral, whatever it takes and remember to nurture, comfort, breathe
salt baths help
so does crying
so does taking a moment just to sit in the sun or go outside and listen to the wind in the trees
or throwing a good screaming tantrum to release

All is unfolding in it's Right and Perfect way
you are too
just keep swimming! ;)
:hug:
hope this helps a little bit...

[MorningGlow]

7. Yeah--WTF!

I do NOT like feeling so out of control. Very "whelming" indeed! I have SO much fear knocking around inside me right now--definitely NOT my usual.

Good point about the solar flares. I always forget their influence!
Absolutely LOVE what Lucie said about perfect balance! :rofl: Ain't it the truth!

Okay, deep breath. Keep swimming. Because the only way out is through anyway, right? :hug:

[FirstLight]

13. exactly

and why should we give a shit so much? It's all gonna burn anyway... ;) :P :rofl:

[PhillyGurl]

41. Thanks for posting

I thought I was nuts! Rick directed me here. Now I know why I've felt overwhelmed like everything is too much and I want sit down and make the world go away.

[kentauros]

3. I think that in instances like this

we should have Skype chats for ASAH peoples. You can conference those calls, too. Maybe just hearing some new voices would help :) :hug:

[MorningGlow]

8. Aww that's a nice idea

I just never have the time to sit down and Skype or even live chat with others. Sucks, but there it is... No worries, though--even typed words have been helping! :hug:

[Ricochet21]

4. It is this grand cross with Pluto

fortunately, it will pass soon
we're used to stuffing things down
this energy is bypassing it, it has a life of it's own
but it needs to be processed, seriously
what are your tears saying to you?

Listen

I'm sorry you feel bad and hope you feel much better soon, :loveya:

[MorningGlow]

9. Er, how soon is soon? :)

Very good question, Rick. I don't know the answer yet. Lots of fears are surfacing, I do know that much. And maybe it's my age, but lately I've been adding the mortality fear to everything else--just the knowledge that anyone could be gone at any time. I'm grasping at things, clutching. Why am I clutching, all of a sudden? I know better than that. Whuf.

Anyway, thanks for the good thoughts. :hug:

[Ricochet21]

12. Pluto

has me facing my mortality too. I understand. It's all inspiring us to live OUR life, I guess. Good luck.

[MorningGlow]

14. Well...

I am getting tired of waiting for the opportunity to actually live my life. As I've said so often before, I'm alert and waiting for the "go" signal--so very, very alert for even the slightest nod--and yet...nothin'. The longer I go, the more impatient I get. That doesn't help.

[Ricochet21]

17. I'm curious about your chart

what do you mean by, "I'm alert and waiting for the GO signal"

what does that mean? I'm not going to try to translate that?
Do you think there is a signal awaiting you from outside?
Do you think there is a signal anywhere but from within you?

I know your chart pretty well, but I wonder what you are "waiting for" in your terms.
I'll try to help if I can.

R

[MorningGlow]

18. Yeah, trying to figure out how to put this without sounding weird

Let's see...well, you know I want to make certain changes in my life.

I have always received a very big, blatant, CLEAR "push" from the Universe when it's time to do something (major life changes). In the past, if I followed these "pushes", everything was great. But if I jumped before it was time, the results were...um...unfortunate, to say the least. So nowadays I ask, and I wait, and sure enough, when it's time, WHAP onnahead. Very hard to miss. I have come to trust whateveryouwannacallit--the Universe, my guides, my instinct--implicitly.

So on this issue I have asked, meditated, ruminated, etc. I've been told to wait; it's not time yet. Wait; it's not time yet.

I'm just getting impatient, is all.

[Ricochet21]

21. ok now i see

Very interesting
Hope you get clunked :hi:

[MorningGlow]

22. LOL thanks

Me too. And I'm pretty sure this is the first time that I WANT to get whapped on the head!

[murielm99]

37. MG, I have been thinking and thinking about this since

you posted it. The same is true of me. I can never describe it, but every time something major comes along, it is like I was hit in the head by an opportunity, or an opportunity fell on my head.

And yes, there are waiting times for us as well. It is not good to rush things, or act too soon.

The time will come. I hope we can all help you be patient.

[MorningGlow]

38. Thanks, Muriel

Yes, it's one of those things that you know it when you feel it. It's that "lightning strike" feeling people talk about, except for me it's like a jolt and a smack on the head at the same time. I guess my guides just want to make sure I take certain life paths sometimes--they're very, er, adamant about it!

This waiting period I'm in now has gone on so long (a couple of years) that in my darker moments I wonder if I missed my opportunity. I know it's not true, but :wtf: How long is this going to take?

[murielm99]

39. Two years is a long time.

Hang in there! You'll be fine.

[MorningGlow]

40. Yes, it is--it's pretty crazy

I found one short-term solution today--physical labor! I decided to mop some floors and clean some windows. Good for getting the excess energy out.

[Celebration]

5. Try watching these

Fetal Position to Vitruvian Man http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=caiRlJkj2Ko

Neuron 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mu1zPs98BsM

Neuron 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-PcPb6HMuk

Then when you sleep tonight, try listening to some Theta Waves (WITH decent earphones), or you can even do it now if you can afford some time to relax.

http://jetcityorange.com/binaural-beats/

Hopefully this will help you defunk!

[MorningGlow]

10. Thank you, C

You always have the best videos and treatments! :hug:

[LiberalEsto]

11. Seasonal depression, maybe?

The autumn equinox is tomorrow, and the days have been getting noticeably shorter the past few weeks.
It's also been unusually cloudy and rainy in theNnortheast and Mid-Atlantic states.

I noticed symptoms of seasonal affective disorder and started using my light box on Monday. I also went back on 2000 IU of vitamin D3 daily, which I didn't need during the summer. Both of these things are definitely helping me.

[MorningGlow]

15. 'Tis the season, that's true

But I've never been affected by SAD. And actually we've had a pretty sunny early fall--sunnier than usual, even. But pretty soon I'm going to increase my D3 dose (I cut back on it in the summer).

Thanks, LE!

[PhillyGurl]

42. Does the Vit D help?

I started taking Coromega this summer has omegas and D, sounds like I need to discipline better and not forget to take it!

[Cleita]

16. Is it the equinox? Maybe it's affecting you. I know that

people around me are in strange moods like trying to pick fights with me, especially the boss, who is bi-polar. I am going out of my way to avoid them if possible until things stabilize.

[MorningGlow]

19. Could very well be

I usually enjoy the sabbats, but who knows, these days, right? :crazy:

[BlueIris]

20. Yes, there is a terrible event coming.

I've been posting about it for months. The only reason it hasn't happened yet is scheming on the part of the government. They have been trying to keep this scandal from hitting the fan for more than three years, despite how futile that is. Could be any day. I think this is part of what you are feeling.

[MorningGlow]

24. I'm certain that my concern is over something much more personal

But thanks for the warning, BI. :hi:

[findrskeep]

23. I can totally relate MG...

The energy has been really intense for over a week now. Yes solar flares are some of it. I've been exhausted, and all I want to do is veg and sleep. I said a few days ago that I have a sense of anticipation, but I'm not sure for what. It feels good or neutral to me, not bad, so at least that's somewhat positive..lol. The energy knocked me for a loop last week! The ONLY thing that helps is to eat raw, living food, i.e. lots of fruit/veggies and nothing heated over 120 degrees. It's not easy to stick to it, but the downside is almost unbearable, at least for me. I can "flow" with the energy almost effortlessly eating this way and often times just feel blissful. So why do I go off of it?!?? lol. The energy feels to me like it truly is the wave pattern that you see on the Mayan Calendar graphs, down in the "dip" of the wave one day and the next, on top of the wave. I also have a very close friend who could've written your post. She's experiencing verbatim what you are. It helps me to know that it's not just me when I feel this way, and hopefully this will help you too! :hug:

[MorningGlow]

25. Oh yes indeed it does help to know it's "going around"!

Thank you for this! :hug: Very interesting that your friend is going through the exact same thing. You be sure to tell her we'll all get through this!

While I was waiting for my son to fall asleep, I sat in the dark and did a whole lot of talking to (okay, beseeching of) my angels and personal goddess--that helped a lot too.

Raw food diet, eh? And me with a hamburger for dinner tonight--!

[PADemD]

26. Sounds like a double or triple critical

physical and emotional biorhythms. If you send me your birth date, I can do a chart for you.

[MorningGlow]

27. Check your PM!

:hi:

[oceanspirit]

28. I've just read all the posts to this thread

I have to tell you all, I've been feeling extremely heavy these past two weeks. I can't explain it other than what MG has posted. It's a gaaahd awful feeling. Like MG said, feeling like something or waiting for something to happen. I've been on pins and needles for two weeks. I"m not one to cry, but boy can I cry lately.
I have depression issues, but I don't feel like it's even a depression thing. It's not that kind of emotion, or feeling.

I can't sleep, and when I do I have these horrid horrid insect dreams.
To go back a couple of days, I was cleaning out kitties litter boxes, when there was this HUGE black hairy spider in one of the litter boxes. I totally freaked out. Here I was in my basement, trying to kill this dang thing with the blunt kitty litter scooper. The darn thing just wouldn't die. Now mind you I am not one to kill kill. I"m the one more likely to catch the mouse and release it in the woods behind my house. But this was a monster spider.
I'm even flipping out just typing this. I can't stand insects, like ants, bees, etc. I have awful insect dreams alto. But now it's gone to this big black hairy spider dreams.
Though very busy lately I feel like I'm on the outlook. Like I'm looking over my shoulder all the time. Something is going to happen.

I had not heard from my son in weeks. He works a night shift job. I've called him, texted him, emailed him, and nada! So today I just had to talk to him. I called him at 4:30 in the afternoon, woke him up. I just didn't care, I had to hear his voice. He is extremely busy, working 16 hour days and is just exhausted. I understand this, but I just had a creepy feeling. Moms have the right to wake up their kids no matter how old they are. I'm not getting along very well lately with my daughter. This bothers the heck out of me. I've been completely outspoken lately, and while this is part of who I am, it seems there is just no filter on my mouth lately. I just say it like it is. I'm not this rude. (I think LOL) But lately I just feel I have to get stuff off my chest.

What the heck is going on??? After calling a friend of mine the other night, I knew that I had to get back into my center place.
I just feel lost. Lost and floating around with no place to belong.

I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted. Something has drained all my energy out of my body. I feel like a wet dish rag.
Does any of this make sense? I know it's more rambling than making a point, but this is exactly how I"ve been lately. Awwwww, someone stuff a rag in my mouth will you??? Anyone out there have any ideas on how I can calm my mind and body. Mediating isn't working. Something or someone keeps interrupting me. I can't quiet the mind long enough to relax.
I see alot of you have felt something this week. Maybe the space station thingy that plunging to earth is coming right for me. Humm, maybe that's it. Anxiety overload!!!

It's been awhile since I've posted. I hope I didn't make a complete idiot out of myself tonite. I think I just needed to get some of my feelings out there. I opened up my DU page and there was the post from my good friend MG. She feeling the exact same way I have been feeling. Weird huh?

[oceanspirit]

29. Well maybe now I have an answer to my feelings

I woke up this morning, feeling so crappy. My stomach hurts so badly. I"ve spent all day on the couch wrapped up in a blanket like it was the middle of winter. Freezing cold, feeling just awful.
I looked at what I wrote last night, and just felt so embarrassed for making such a big deal about what I've been feeling the past two weeks.
See I"m alone alot. Too much time to think sometimes. Today even though I was sick all day long, I did nothing. I think I just needed a day of not doing anything. I still feel crappy tonite, but maybe that was sort of answer why the feelings of overwhelming weirdness were there.
I m sorry the above post was so dramatic. I really try not to be that way and I should know better, that before I get sick, I have these overwhelming thoughts of panic, pananoia, and fear. Stupid huh?
Well just thought I'd update on at least the conclusion (hopefully) to my weirdness over the past two weeks. I should now I"m not a spring chicken any more, and just can't run and run and run and not sleep, nor eat right without suffering conscienquences.
Thank you for listening all. The filter is back on.

Oceanspirit

[Celebration]

31. Hope you are feeling better!!

I just hate that feeling leading up to when I get sick. Something is way off, but what? It is almost a relief to get a full blown thing. On a side note, sometimes if I realize what is going on I can put the juice of lime in water and avoid it....lots of lime. But, it doesn't always work.

[MorningGlow]

33. Hey you

Heck, you've been going through a lot lately--it's understandable that you'd be "out of your peace". Anxiety overload indeed! Don't be too hard on yourself. Just take lots of deep breaths. That's what I'm doing. This too shall pass. :hug:

[oceanspirit]

34. Thanks MG

I do feel a little better today. Between the stomach virus, and my allergies out of whack, it does do a number on me. I took yesterday and part of today to recenter myself and get a grip, so to speak.
I've been going through way too much this summer, I guess it was bound to happen. I am going to keep working on myself now, cause without that, I can't take care of others. Thanks for understanding.

[lbrtbell]

30. Get checked for anxiety disorder

The symptoms are exactly as you describe, and can escalate into full-blown panic attacks if you don't get treatment in the early stages.

Astrology is meant to help you guide your life, but it's not a replacement for medical attention. There's a lot of transformational energy right now; use it to get to the bottom of your issues before they get worse. :)

[MorningGlow]

32. Thanks, lbrtbell

I had several panic attacks back when my thyroid was wackadoodle (before I got the proper medication); the way I feel now is different from that. Thank goodness. ;)

[oceanspirit]

36. Agreed

Panic attacks are no fun. Thank god I got a handle on those as well. (As I did get medical attention years ago for them) You're right MG, THANK Goodness. But with all that said, we still can get "whacky" when the universe goes haywire as well, regardless of what is medically not right with us.

[oceanspirit]

35. Thanks for the advise Ibrtbell

I've got a handle on my mental health. I appreciate your advise. You're right, it's not a replacement for medical attention. But I"m good. Thank you again.

[Why Syzygy]

43. I wonder...

How is your calcium intake? Have you ever had broken bones? Anything going on with your bones?

I was going to come here and declare, "It is your bones, MG"! I'm wisely tempering to investigate. Yet to do a search about possible connections.

This came to me as I noticed myself feeling a bit of mysterious dread. Then I noticed that fibro was flaring up in my arms and shoulders. I wondered if there was any correlation with 'arms/shoulders' and 'feeling of doom'.

I don't know yet. I do know there is *reason* why mine hurt. It just makes me curious if there is any metaphysical connection.

[MorningGlow]

44. I take calcium every day

because I take vitamin D, and of couse calcium is necessary for absorption of the D.

I did read something the other day about getting too much of my thyroid meds could cause heightened emotions, including a feeling of dread. I've got a thyroid-checkup appointment with my doc in a few weeks; it'll be interesting to see how my levels are and if they need to be tweaked.

Could be that, could be purely metaphysical--who knows? I've been feeling better since the new moon, I've noticed. :shrug:

[Why Syzygy]

45. I did a quick search ..

found information about emotions affecting bone health, but not the other way around, yet.

I also remembered that old country folk say, "I can feel it in my bones".
Dread is something I don't usually have at all. I had to get over that a long time ago. I've had enough 'doom's days' in my life that I know it is a waste of time to try and live it before I have to.

Maybe it was just a poke for me. But this thread also played a part in this discovery. I'll be following up with more info gathering :)

I'm glad you are feeling better.

[MorningGlow]

46. Want a laugh?

I got a daily horoscope in my e-mail yesterday. Never got it before. Not even sure where it came from.

Anyway, this was my forecast for the day:

"If something doesn't change soon, you're going to jump right out of your skin. Fortunately, you're quite familiar with the concept of making things change, and not at all afraid of it. You go!"

WHAT DID I JUST SAY about not feeling comfortable in my own skin?
:rofl: