I didn't know i was going to be blindsided today

[Sweet Freedom]

Did I miss the memo?

Recently my life has been super happy and awesome and then today comes and it's easily the worst day I've had all year. I lost one friendship, possibly a second that meant more to me, and I am accused of something I didn't do. :(

I hate this. All I can do is hope and wait that it all works out.

11-11-11, you suck.

[kentauros]

1. I'm sorry that's happened, Sweet Freedom.

All I can offer is my own friendship and :hug: as well as the suggestion to just listen quietly to the toning sounds over here: http://www.templeofsacredsound.org

You know, we're rather close geographically. I'm near Meyerland, and there are a few other DUers in Houston proper. We ought to get a meet-up going sometime :)

[Sweet Freedom]

9. Thank you

Yes, that would be fun.

[elleng]

2. Same here, Sweet.

:hug:
:pals:

[Sweet Freedom]

10. Thank you for the hugs.

[BlueIris]

3. Ouch. Jeeze, sorry.

Scorpio season is in full swing, though. I've been...less than enjoying it so far.

[Sweet Freedom]

11. You know, something shitty always happens

this time of year for me.

Hope it gets better for both of us.

[GliderGuider]

4. I hear you. It was a day of lessons for me too.

I guess all we can do is try to make lemonade out of these 11 lemons - I'm sending you healing energy.

[Sweet Freedom]

12. Thank you

I could use some good energy. I'm exhausted from crying and worrying.

I hope everything for you is better today. :hug:

[Howler]

5. (((Hug)))

:hug:

[Sweet Freedom]

13. (((Thank you)))

[Ricochet21]

6. I don't believe it was 11 11 11

Mars entered Virgo yesterday and blind-sided me too . It opposes Chiron exactly. I don't know what all of this means but I sure hope you feel better soon.

[elleng]

7. Whatever it was it got me, late in the day;

earlier today I looked into it, discovered it wasn't what it purported to be, so one family member in much better condition (+ relations with me) than I had been told; other family member, not so much. C'est la vie.

Hope Sweet's better.

[murielm99]

17. Whatever it was, it got to me yesterday, too.

11-11-11 was my dad's birthday. I called to wish him a happy birthday, and got totally dumped on by my mother. She is crazy, and had a meltdown. I spoke to my brother about it, and warned my son.

As it stands now, I can laugh about it. But some of her crap is not funny. It is hurtful to me, and others whom I love.

[elleng]

18. So sorry, murielm; really does sound like a virus going around.

Wonder whether it had anything to do w 'lunacy,' as in JUST PASSED full moon.
Was my 'stranged' husb's b'day; tomorrow is my Dad's 98th. Couldn't find 2 more different people, Scorpio birthdays.

Learned a bit about cause of my 'whatever,' as related to 1 daughter not wanting to hear reminder from her sister that it was their father's b'day, as '1' daughter is an ADULT, knows it, and her sister just can't honor/respect her as a person. Went from there, involving me quite unnecessarily in unpleasant dialogues. Today I took bull by horns, got to bottom of it (w/o discussing w either daughter,) so I can breathe easily. Daughters will never truly get along; our ball and chain.

:hi:

[murielm99]

19. I do think it had to do with the moon.

My husband and I both noticed the huge, beautiful orange moon as it rose. We both commented on it later as it climbed the sky and was very bright and beautiful.

A couple of hours later, when my mother had screeched at me and my brother on the phone, hubby and I concluded that her meltdown could be lunar. Oh, the full moon!

This will pass.

[Sweet Freedom]

8. Well it definitely opened old wounds

Oh, the drama...S1 and I were betrayed by S2 and long-story short, no one trusts each other and now S1 is very hurt. I'm so upset, I can't eat. :(

This daily fix and Neptune week resonate with me: http://michaellutin.com/

I hope you're okay, Rick. :hug:

[elleng]

14. Similar, as aggravation btwn daughter/siblings, w me

dragged into middle by drama-queen dtr.
Spoke w quasi-neutral 'family members,' which helped a bit.
Nothing like families, Sweet.
Breathing deeply.

Absolutely:
You
may have to kiss your own boo-boo
and play Mommy to others
while you tend to your own wound.
How and why does that happen?
Ceres and Chiron both move forward
both in Pisces now.

SO.. you have to bite your lip and not stumble
as you smile and show your caring side
even though it hurts inside.
In fact, for all of us.....



:hi:

[Ricochet21]

15. I'm doing fine now

thank you.

[kimmerspixelated]

16. Expand on this, please.

Mars means??, Virgo means??, and Chiron...is spirituality??

Oops, I bet I have it wrong..

[Ricochet21]

20. While 11 11 11 was happening

Mars came out of Leo and entered Virgo where it will Rx in late January.
Whenever Mars ingresses, or enters a new sign, it sends shockwaves in at least 4 signs. Virgo-Pisces-Sagittarius-and-Gemini. These signs are Mutable or very CONDUCTIVE. Plus, Neptune and Chiron are hanging out on the border of Aqu-Pisces, so we had an exact
Mars opposition to Chiron at that time. When planets sit around, they set up an 'era'. Then we get used to it, then MARS COMES TO TOWN and triggers the whole axis.

This particular Mars-Chiron axis is one of "what are you doing to get healing?" or it is agitating our particular "wound" which is now traveling in Pisces. Translation: we're having spiritual (Pisces) crises across the board, individually and collectively since Chiron is "under attack."

That's why I've been feeling like I've been thrown off of my spiritual horse, if you will; time to climb back on. Mars is ego, once again and always wants immediate blind gratification.

Think on that some. :hug:

[kimmerspixelated]

21. Before thinking on that some, I'll have to be reading

on that... some MORE!

Wow, this is a great explanation. Of, course I knew it would be considering the source.:loveya:

[Sweet Freedom]

22. So is there a timeline for this?

Was 11/11 the big hump and we are on the other side or is this going to linger until Mars Rx (or something completely different)?

[Ricochet21]

23. I really don't know

I don't think 11 11 11 was astrological, technically speaking. Best to ask a good numerologist. Sorry. What's happening to you is your Moon in Cancer is getting it from all different directions. Time for a total emotional rebirth for you, and that's coming mainly from Pluto and Uranus in your chart.

[Sweet Freedom]

24. Again??!!!

Geez Louise, I thought I was done with that emotional rebirth stuff a long time ago. In fact, I thought that was why I've been so happy.

Stupid Moon in Cancer. :P

[Ricochet21]

25. No, it's not a stupid Moon in Cancer

it's a wonderful, powerful Moon in Cancer. That's what makes you so emotionally beautiful, see. The process has many stages; in fact I'm going to write about the 4 stages of a long Pluto transit in next month's newsletter. It's hard for Cancer. It's all about letting go and learning that you can be self-sufficient. You're getting stronger all the time because Pluto BRINGS you the strength to do so. Keep at it. :hug:

[Sweet Freedom]

26. Okay, Rick, it's wonderful.

I've let go of S2 forever (can u say sociopath?) and will never speak to him again. S1 thinks I betrayed him (I didn't, but I totally see how it looks like I did. :( ) I've decided there's no way I can prove my innocence, so instead of trying to, I'm just going to let my past actions speak for me and hope that someday the truth will come out. (For me, that's letting go, too.)

I look forward to your newsletter.

[elleng]

27. Good to hear you're 'letting go,' Sweet, esp the sociopath.

Married to one, and will gladly 'let go' when I obtain what he owes me. (Daughters think he's great, so I understand your hopes to prove your innocence. I would like to prove to them his lack thereof; don't know if that will ever occur. If not, I'll 'let go' when I have what I'm owed. Its significant.)
:hi:

[Sweet Freedom]

28. Good luck to you.

I had a pretty bad marriage myself. It took me 14 years to let go, but I'm so happy I did. I hope you get what you are owed soon!

I only hope to prove my innocence to my friend (S1) who is not the sociopath (S2). I'm so sad about this and ashamed that I didn't see S2 for who he is. (BTW: I call them S1 and S2 because they are both Scorpios.)

[elleng]

29. Thanks.

My #s 1 + 2 (above) are daughters. 'stranged husb/sociopath = scorpio, naturally (but so is my great Dad!)
Sad I didn't notice this about husb, but they're game players, and I foolishly fell. Stayed for girls, left when he hit me (and daughters away in college.)

[Ricochet21]

30. You just can't personalize the planets as if they are "out to get you"

It just doesn't work even though it makes the ego feel better.

It's your Moon. No one else's.

You are a very sensitive woman and very warm. You are drawing those to you that need that warmth. Check first that they can give YOU what you need before you get involved. That's where I believe things are going awry. We're looking for a permanent healing here.

The world is about YOU, not S1 or S2, they were just taking advantage of you purity, in my opinion. I saw this from the word go.

You are in the midst of Uranus square Uranus which means it's time to find your own value without someone's agreement. Uranus will bring you a great sense of "I'm done with all of this". It will help you liberate if you but notice it's power. This is no story, this a very powerful truth right now.

I sincerely wish you the best - you deserve it. :hug: