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Aegis, it made me sad to see you feel like you needed to apologize for anything. What you said about 'working a path' was completely valid and it was very kind of you to invite further conversation.
I'd happily answer any question i possibly can and have further conversations with you about magick or whatever. I'm interested in Greek ‘stuff’ too, in fact i usually start my rituals with a 'banishing' that's done in Greek ;-)
now to get this off my chest:
I would warn against getting too hung up on that 'teacher/chela' thing. In fact, I'm rather distrustful of people who like to act as if they are the custodians of some 'secret knowledge' which is somehow too 'dangerous' for other people and it's their personal job to dole it out to whoever they judge 'worthy'. This is a load of ego crap in my opinion. I've known people who are very good, legitimate teachers and they don't act this way. I've also known people who get stuck in their role as 'teacher' and become so full of themselves that they constantly think they are teaching and guiding *everyone* who crosses their path. They tend to be condescending in the most inappropriate situations.
As for the path i've carved out for myself - i've spent the past 30 some (hmm, about 35 years - damn i'm getting old) studying different aspects of magick, starting with the tarot and qabala. I spent most of those years teaching myself before getting involved with group workings, initiations etc. I've never had a formal teacher, but have learned from many different people and lots of reading and lots of practice. This was what was appropriate for me, my particular path and I wouldn't trade that experience for anything else. My partner on the other hand had a really magnificent teacher - a woman well known in some circles, running a group you've probably heard of. Now it took him probably a third of the time to get to the same place it took me 30 years to get, thanks to his teacher. But my point here is that there are many, many ways to get to the same place. (Oh and there's really no 'getting to' - it's an unending process and i'm still 'getting there'.) You can live in Buttf*ck Oklahoma and never meet another person into magick or whatever and still progress along your chosen path. People who tell you otherwise have an agenda of their own. Spirit is everywhere. And you've got the internet!
One of my favorite quotes about 'The Great Work' is from Joseph Campbell's lecture on the Arthurian legend of The Grail. He talks about how the western path is one of an individual quest and an adventure.
He begins by with a passage from Malory's Quest of the Holy Grail:
"They agreed that all would go on this quest, but they thought it would be a disgrace to go forth in a group, so each entered the forest at a point that he, himself, had chosen, where it was darkest and there was no path."
Campbell goes on to say: "Now all of you who have had any thing to do with Oriental gurus know that they have the path, and they know where you are on the path. Some of them will give you their picture to wear, so you know where you are to get to, instead of your own picture. This is the difference, and this is Europe."
"So the knights entered the forest at the point that they had chosen, where there was no path. If there is a path, it is someone else's path, and your are not on the adventure. Now what are you to do about instruction? You can get clues from people who have followed paths, but then you have to carom off that and translate it into your own decision, and there is no book of rules. On this wonderful quest - it's a marvelous romance, with each knight going his own way - when anyone finds the path of another and thinks, "oh, he's getting there!" and begins to follow that path then he goes astray totally, even though the other may get there. This is a wonderful story: that which we intend, that which is the journey, that which is the goal, is the fulfillment of something that never was on the earth before - namely, your own potentiality. Every thumbprint is different from every other. Every cell and structure in your body is different from that of anyone who has ever been on earth before, so you have to work it out yourself, taking your clues from here and there."
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