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Edited on Sat Jan-20-07 04:24 PM by Flaxbee
... one, my husband and I might be on the cusp of a HUGE project that would be very helpful to us after an extremely long dry spell, work-and-income wise. But second, because we've been in such a drought, and because I feel a lot of it is due to his inactivity/passivity (he's the tech entrepreneur; I quit my career (which I loathed, wasn't hard to talk me into quitting being an attorney) to be management/support/etc., but there hasn't been a lot to manage. He used to be very successful - before we were married - but has been so passive lately).... anyway -- back to me feeling stuck in a rut with someone who hasn't done much heavy lifting work-wise, I've applied for what could be a dream job for me, in the arts, and I have an interview in the coming weeks.
So, I've been feeling hopeful about the joint project, but I've also been feeling more in control of my life, like I'm returning to who I am and what I might enjoy, rather than being the supporting helpmeet for my husband. There are pluses and minuses to both scenarios working out: the joint project would be best financially, but I'd be hitched to my husband; the art job would be a way for me to strike out on my own professionally, but it brings a lot of performance anxiety to the fore and isn't nearly as lucrative. I mean, I intend to stay married, I love him, but working with him has been extremely difficult for me.
And if BOTH worked out, I'd have to choose because of location/geographical necessities.
So, I'm very conflicted as to what the dream is telling me.
edited to add: thank you for replying - I appreciate your input. It was helpful!
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