Dream or actual experience?

[GreenPartyVoter]

I desperately want this to be real because my mom just died unexpectedly 2 weeks ago and I want to think she is ok now and at peace.

I think.. maybe it was a dream because at the very end of it I saw a friend shopping for Indian print cloth in some sort of open market, but everything else before that seemed so real.

This took place over a decade ago when I was still in college, but I remember it very well.

In my dream/experience, I was running down the field behind my parents' house. I was flanked on the right and left by "people" whom I could not see but knew they were there. As we ran they "told" me (I didn't hear them just "knew" what they were saying) to "jump". Jump out of my body. But I didn't understand what they meant, so one got in front of me and the other behind me and simultaneously they pushed and pulled. I was ripped out of my body and it was the most unpleasant sensation. Like fingernails on a blackboard to the nth degree. It went on forever and yet was very fast, all at once.

And then I didn't see the field any more, but was in a black place with a misty magenta light. It looked like a space nebula except I saw no stars. I was part of the nebula, and the nebula was part of me. We were all "one" and yet I was still an individual at the same time and knew there were many other individuals there as well, though I can't say who they were. It was very peaceful and I felt joy. Not extreme rapture per se, but very content and just ok about everything.

When I awoke, the rest of that day I was very discombobluated and had trouble making my body work. I almost walked out into traffic because even though my head thought I should stop my body just decided to keep on going off the sidewalk.

[Quakerfriend]

1. So sorry to hear that you've lost your mom GPVr.

:hug:

I will just say to you that I have no doubt that your mom is at peace now.

I have had many 'dreams' where I have visits with my family members who have passed on. They are all characterized similarly in that the visitor 'speaks' without talking. They communicate by transfering their thoughts to me.

I know that these are actual interactions with them because of the very good feeling that comes thru. Also, I often get a confirmation of their visit the next day when I am in the awake state. I, for example, will find a picture of them. Once I even stumbled accross a quote in a book that had been written by one of my great grandfathers. His daughter had been to 'visit' me the night prior.

You mother will likely send you a sign that she is OK and thinking of you! Let her know that you'de like to hear from her.

[Elidor]

2. This sounds very real and similar to my own experiences

The sensation of leaving the body is mentally very unpleasant. It's akin to mental nausea.

I've never made it all the way out–not consciously, anyway. But I'll make it soon. I almost made it two nights ago. I was closer than I've ever been.

I'm sorry about your mom. I think you'll find that you'll be in touch with her fairly soon. My anxiety over my father's death was eventually made into a feeling of great joy when he paid me a visit in a dream. I can't remember a thing about the dream, but I woke feeling immensely happy and knowing I had just been in contact with him. It was intense.