Purging negativity.

[amitten]

I had a horrible horrible day Monday, and I can't sleep because the negativity is still coursing through me.

Usually, I can "let it go" pretty easily. But I feel totally trapped in a negative state, and everyone is making me upset (no, I'm not PMSing).

Is it the moon, the stars, or me?

[Shallah Kali]

1. I suspect is is a combo w/all the energies coursing about impacting your personal stuff

It's like pouring clean water into a pond too fast it stirs up the stuff at the bottom faster than it can easily dissolve.

Something that often helps me break out of an emotional rut I fell into that may be of use to you is bending over (either standing or sitting in a chair or even kneeling) and putting my hands on the floor in front of me to make a cirut of energy w/the earth and toning (making whatever noises feel like coming out of my throat). Sometimes just toning thinking what would this ache/pain/emotion make for a noise and then start humming it out helps. also wiping my aura off can help by brushing down the inside of where I believe it to be with the intion that my hand is like a dust cloth catching all the yuk. Just reach all the way around as far as comfortable w/out straining then clap three times to transmute and discharge whatever you collected.

I hope it is OK for me to send some Reiki your way now to help you and I hope you can sleep very very soon!!!

[amitten]

6. Thank you--I will try that. n/t

[northernlights]

2. same thing for me

I swing between fear and outrage here. And I sense that the employed people stringing me further and further into debt just wait for *any* sign of anger to send out the warnings. That was what happened at my last job and with my farm. They steal and abuse and steal and abuse. First accusation and they provoke. First sign of anger, and the police are there there threatening you with jail if you dare raise your voice about the robbery, trashing of your property, harrassment in your home, whatever.

And isolation. Tonight at my first oral communications class, the woman sitting next to me refused to talk to me, gave me the cold shoulder all evening. Outright, openly refused, said, "No. I can't talk to you," and turned away when we were supposed to be comparing notes on how we fared on a communications style quiz. Turned her back to me, and turned to the people in the row behind us instead.

doors are still closing for me, and none opening. Doors just keep closing. None opening. None.

The media says "Health Care industry still hiring." Not here. Just checked the local hospital. They've contracted out all the clinical work. The hospital to the south already did that last year. So even if I make it through school and get hired, I'll get no benefits. Even with a worldwide shortage, they are finding ways to cut the salaries of bottom rung delivery people. All planning around how to pay for school to get back to work...is worth jack shit. If I go forward, I'm in debt until I die, and possibly end up homeless before that. If I don't go forward, I sink.

I'm not worried about homeless for me. I can trade in my little car for a van, throw a mattress in the back and head south to be a beach bag lady. But my animals. What about my babies?

[Fire Walk With Me]

3. Being rejected by =humans=, especially right now, is actually a compliment.

This is the time of shadow purging.

[northernlights]

5. thanks, Peake

boy, I've had a bucketload of compliments in the past 8 years...

[Fire Walk With Me]

8. One site says that this will be prominent until late April

so that when more "heaven on earth" hits, we won't collapse under our hidden sicknesses...so watch for people to be expunging their sickness (even more than usual).

Two things this life has taught me: Other people's feelings are as important as my own, and that you still have to put aside other people's feelings when the big picture is in play. (Many many believed in Bush but were horribly wrong to do so...and had to be told, if we were to change ANYTHING.)

Sorry that you've gone through that, and I hope that things get better.

[amitten]

7. I'm really sorry. I hope things turn around for you soon. n/t

[FirstLight]

4. My monday sucked too...

I think it does have a lot to do with purging the "neggies"
I am starting the second level of my intuition/meditation group this week, and usually a few days before any energy work like thius I have a huge rush of crap going on...and then today after the emotions wear off, i feel sheepish for having my tantrum

I feel for us all here and I am so glad we can come together at least here, if nowhere else
times are rough and seem to be getting rougher, so I guess all we can do is hang on and try to hold the light as best we can. and if we lose sight of it, know that somehow, it will return.

:grouphug:

mercury retrograde only 'just' started, this is gonna be a bumpy ride