2:03 in the A.M. - a painful reminder of the power of a Mars/Uranus transit.

Dover

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Tue Feb-10-09 04:07 PM
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2:03 in the A.M. - a painful reminder of the power of a Mars/Uranus transit.

I used to feel 'difficult' transits so acutely when I was young. But as I've gotten older
the cosmic grip seems to have relaxed and softened considerably and even the most trying of transits are sometimes almost imperceptible in my life. I like to think this is due to the maturing process and conscious work done to lift the vibration of these planetary antagonists in my astrological chart, integrating them in a better balance.

And perhaps that is indeed the case.

That might explain why I did not heed the Mars opposition to Uranus transit that came so abruptly
and painfully into my life in the wee hours of the night.

I was awake doing some online research, and finishing some work. It was around 1 A.M. when I just
happened to check my transits (something I do infrequently these days). I noticed that a Mars
opposition to my natal Uranus was due to occur within another hour or so. In my experience the exact aspects of these two planets are the most likely to manifest in obvious and unmistakable ways, right down to the second, which is why both planets are often used by astrologers to rectify charts with uncertain birth times. So I thought to myself, 'how might these two energies manifest at this
time of night'? If it had been earlier in the day I can imagine perhaps a feisty exchange with someone, or a sudden disruption of some kind, an accident or car problems. These are all things
that have occurred before under the influence of these energies. But not at this time of night.

Perhaps my computer will fail me once more (I had just taken it in for repairs during the recent Mercury retrograde)? In retrospect, I'd have given anything if that was the extent
of their menacing influence. Still, the exact aspect was an hour away and I went back to my reading and forgot about it.

About an hour later I had completed my work for the night, shut down my computer and was turning
out the house lights when I remembered that my outdoor cat Benny had still not shown up for his dinner. So I stuck my head out the door and called his name into the night as I had done earlier, in the hopes he'd come for his long overdue dinner. No response. This tardiness wasn't entirely unusual, but I had a bad feeling. I began to close the door to lock up for the night, and glanced up at the kitchen clock. At the same moment that I realized it was...to the minute...the exact time of the Mars/Uranus opposition, I heard a very faint 'meow' in response just as the door closed. I threw the door back open, called again and got a barely audible reply. I moved in the direction of the sound, my eyes searching the dark and behind some boxes on the porch I found Benny.
He didn't move. I got the flashlight and returned to look closer. I reached down to pat him and still he didn't move from his crouched position.
So I slowly turned him over and felt wetness. To my horror I realized he had been almost completely disemboweled by an animal attack, and one hind leg was barely still attached.

So to make a very painful story short, I rushed him to the vet emergency clinic and after discussing
it with the vet through tears, I took some time to say my good-byes to my sweet sweet boy before putting him to sleep for eternity.

The trauma of the violence of that incident (a vicious attack probably by a dog) and the loss of one so dear to me left me shaken and trembling with horror and grief. This violence happens everyday in nature, but rarely are we witness or victim and so it's easy to forget that we are part of these natural events and cosmic cycles...until we are reminded....swept into its violence, gentleness, dark terror and immense beauty.

I miss you Benny.