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I've been trying for two years now. I have a lot of lifelong problems (including hearing loss, very poor balance, and intractible severe pain) from several ear surgeries, and have developed intestinal problems on top of that. I also have the fibromyalgic symptoms, although that (and the high-frequency EEG spindles) seems to come with the chronic-pain territory. Plus, I have sleep disorders that are close to narcolepsy -- everything but the full-on sleep attacks. I also recently discovered that I could have easily applied for benefits as long as as the middle 1980s, but decided to push myself to work in a series of high-stress jobs instead. (I have also never been able to get a grad-school package that would get me anything other than Deep Dish Debt.)
I know what you're saying. They all say it, gay or straight -- "What a dreamboat!"
I'm "high-functioning" and stay in a pretty good mood. It's difficult for other people to tell that anything is wrong with me at all. Naturally, I've been turned down for just about everything I've applied for. In theory, I can work, and I spend a lot of time at the computer at home as it is. But in the course of an eight-hour work day, I may have to use the bathroom five or six times, have two near-sleep attacks, and spend six hours of those eight with a severe ear ache, like bad swimmer's ear, for which I take percocet. And employers just love drugged-out employees with the chronic runs and no sense of balance, no matter that they can still get their job done, often in less time than their other worker bees.
And I can't even get treatment because -- no health insurance!
Is all this starting to sound familiar?
What I've been told is to apply on my own twice or three times. (I'm starting number three.) THEN get a lawyer if necessary. It has become almost pro forma -- they reject you until you get "lawyered-up", then you get benefits.
It doesn't matter that you don't want Medicare, back payments, etc. -- you'll get what you have coming to you under the law, damn it, and no back talk!
As for your partner's FM, a lot of people do understand; the difficulty is that the insurance industry doesn't want to pay for it, and they've put a lot of effort into marginalizing people with pain-based disorders. Most physicians are shameful wimps; when their patients get a lawyer, they suddenly become emboldened to declare that fibromyalgia/CFIDS/etc. actually is an illness and affects the patient's quality-of-life.
My own biggest problem has been me. The past five years of my life have been brutal; if it hadn't been for my family, I would certainly be an homme de la rue (or a "street person", as we say in les États-Unis). My grandmother died, a process that took ten months, and I was her primary caregiver, which took more of a physical toll on me than I cared to admit. I've gone through more guilt and shame over my disability than is healthy; I've gone through more than is sane -- but that's of my own making. Still, Once Upon A Time, I was on the track to being a psychologist, and did work in clinical medicine as a tech for several years, so I can well understand that the first, and largest, struggle is dealing with being disabled and still developing one's abilities as far as is possible.
If you haven't applied even once so far, do so immediately. Most states will let you do most of it online, and the whole process took me about twenty hours. You can even apply for other benefits like food stamps and general assistance in most cases. Of course, you can get a lawyer today and start that way if you'd prefer; there may be advantages to doing so in your situation. (As for your father, he should start spending some "quality time" with his company's human-resources person, and let that person go to bat for him.) From what I understand, the harder you push, the easier it is, although that "push" is procedural -- you probably know enough to NOT be pushy with the bureaucrats themselves! They make weasel piss for salary as it is, and most people feel that it's customary to abuse them.
At this point, all I can say is, "Go for it, and good luck". You sound as though you "have it together" to a much greater degree than most disabled people, so give it a shot, and don't get discouraged. Even if you hit a few roadblocks, having a worthwhile life is the main thing, and remember that in California especially, you can't swing a dead cat without hitting at least a couple of lawyers. (Imagine if you were to swing a pickaxe! But I digress ...)
Which reminds me, as of April 1, I was eligible to apply again. Looks like I'll be hitting my state department of whatever's website again soon.
--p!
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