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I'm back. But I got issues I'm still contending with. I just got diagnosed with Fibromyalgia & slow thyroid,on top of my psych issues and the post herpatic neuropathy and bone issues..Just started taking Lyrica and T3. God dammit I can't fucking THINK now.I was making some rice pudding tonight because the fridge is looking bare and it would be tasty & last a few days until we are able to pay for food... So I made the custard first,I stirred and stirred the mixture but it never thickened, by time it boiled,I figured it out why it failed .I forgot the 1/3 cup of flour!! Wasted a few eggs,some milk,and fuckit!
And I can't get up in the morning,and I sleep ALOT now.I'm foggy alot if it isn't dissociation it's fibro. I used to sleep for 4 hours a night and was fine.Not anymore.My daily functioning levels have taken a hit.I don't have endurance. The pain is easing up but my right side is showing signs of weakening, the muscle tone isn't as defined as my left arm.Fuck! How bad is all this shit going to get??!
I dread the day when my body cannot function. I have no one.I guess I'll be sent to some institution and will never be seen again. I'm not saying it out of self pity,it is what my situation may very well become,and it's scary,pisses me off and I feel sad.
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