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Diagnosis - bipolar rapid cycling.
Basically my moods go up and down on a fairly fixed cycle irrespective of what's actually going on around me. My life is fairly stable. I've got the same bunch of people around me who (mostly) act pretty predictable. So any variation that I see in what's going on around me is ME, not them. My personal cycle is pretty much three days up, three days down. Any one of those days can be particularly bad, or a transition day. Generally the transitions happen overnight, but I can be on a particularly bad low and suddenly I feel "the magic" of a high coming on, or I can be having a perfectly good ordinary day and the wind gets blown out of my sails and I'm crying. Generally this happens on day three.
This week I went through a bad patch - a four-day-long low, but I got really really upset on the last day of it, so I suspect what was really happening was a three day biological low followed by a one-day situational low when I happened to be on a biological high at the same time, leading to panic attacks and tantrums.
People are used to my cycles. If I'm a little sluggish at work, my boss knows wait two days and I'm liable to pull an all-nighter to make up for it. The kids know exactly when to hit me up for money.
There are a variety of bipolars. Traditional bipolar is cycling over a long period of time, at least months. My partner has a bipolar type where he's all over the place on no particularly fixed schedule.
What will help is tracking the cycles to determine what type of bipolar, the serverity, then medication and counselling. In my case, a minor mood stabilizer like Epival helps. They tried me on lithium but that's more appropriate for people with longer and wider swings.
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