What is the best suicide hotline number?

[mrgorth]

Now that I'm almost off all my anti-deps I don't feel the crushing/tearing sensation of depression but I do feel very down, lonely and angry about my divorce and all the lovely stuff that comes along with it. I don't want to burden family/friends with how I'm feeling as frequently as I feel it but I do feel I occassionally need someone to get me through rough times. Are those numbers anonymous? Thanks.

[varkam]

1. 1-800-784-2433

As far as I am aware, this numer is completely anonymous. If you need someone to talk to professionally, don't hesitate to look someone up and do so. It can help a lot through the rough spots.

Please take care :pals:

[mrgorth]

2. Thanks.

[Pharaoh]

3. Don't go over the edge Mrgorth

we're here for you man.......

emotions and thoughts pass like clouds in the sky....

it an up and down cycle , try to at least notice the ups and hold on as best you can, and know that millions share your shoes and if not for yourself you must persevere for the rest of us......

We are all one after all:grouphug:

[Pharaoh]

4. PS

this could be your effexor withdrawl also.

Please talk with your doctor:pals:

[bling bling]

5. How are things mrgorth?

Please post an update when you get a chance.

[mrgorth]

6. I'm starting to see a therapist

had an appt. on Monday, took me the whole hour to get him up to speed. I was gonna see my doc yesterday but was too busy for his 20 minute backlog. I just hate being so goddamned intense. Coming off the effexor and dealing with my ex dating again being in my face I'm feeling, maybe not hardcore depression, but sadness, anger and frustration. People are always telling me to lighten up, relax, whatever, as if I can. I don't want my kids to be hurt but I just want it all to go away, to not feel like this anymore.

[Pharaoh]

7. Yes I Know mrgorth

life can certainly suck sometimes, I am going through my own mid life adjustment,

Glad to hear your talking to a therapist, I may do that next year myself if things don't "shift" on their own as they usually do as time goes by.:party:

[bling bling]

8. I understand.

I understand everything you've described, including what it feels like to come off of effexor.

I've been feeling frustrated and very irritable lately, and have trouble concentrating. I went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago for meds because I felt like I was slipping and I became very scared about slipping back into depression. I won't go back on Effexor, though. That's a new rule for me.

I've just come to terms with the fact that for me I need meds from time to time. I think my symptoms are triggered by stress. If I can keep my stress levels moderated I'm usually ok. But invariably some highly stressful event will come along and the next thing I know I'm battling to not sink.

I want you to be patient because even though time seems like the enemy now, it really does eventually heal. The one thing I can tell you with certainty is that you'll be rewarded for toiling through this time in your life. It will take a while, no doubt, but you will reach a point where the pain and frustration and sadness of your divorce will be healed and replaced with a very satisfying feeling of acceptance. Oh, it's such a liberating experience when you reach that point. It's really indescribable.

As for the depression, sighhhhhhhhh. What can be said about depression. Anyone who's been through it on any serious level knows that it's like being in a personal little hell. Like I said above, I'm quick to turn to meds if it will help me get out of it. I know that when I'm in the throes of depression I can't even remember what it feels like to feel good, feel joy, or even just "feel." But when I do finally get out of it, the feelings come back and I feel like a different person. I hope you make progress using a therapist. Please let me know how that works for you, maybe I should consider going that route too if I hear positive things about it from you. That is, if I can find a therapist that I connect with. I haven't had much luck with that in the past.