This is in reference to a new job. --->
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=362x596I appreciated the advice obviously given in the thread and have tried to work through it.
Then I got to this point --->
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=362x604And now I am back to feeling like I cannot stand being at this job. I am in this perpetual circle of anxiety that seems to be feeding itself. When I leave work I want to just forget about it and relax, but I start thinking about the next day, which obviously feed the anxiety.
I try and focus on the job, but feel completely blindsided my lack of concentration due to my anxiety.
I am trying to figure out how to "fix" this problem and I may have a solution, but even that is causing me second thoughts.
I've looked up anxiety attacks/panic disorders and the symptoms fit to a "t". I am trying some of the exercises etc but no luck.
I'm not sure what I am looking for by posting this here, some kind words, some advice, not sure.
This weekend I did talk to my wife about my feelings and for the first time in 2 months since having all this going on she actually listened to me. It's not like she wasn't trying to listen to me, but it was kind of like, "I know how you are feeling, but like me, you have to try to work through it."
She had recently changed jobs and I had to carry and encourage her mentally that she could make it, and she is, with all her love, trying to do the same for me.
The difference being I may have an opportunity to go back to my old job, whereas she had been laid off completely.
So here I am 3 months later....confused, scared and kind of freaking out!
Calgon!!! TAKE ME AWAY!!!!!