so fucking depressed

[Rising Phoenix]

haven't been out of bed in a week.....haven't eaten in three days. I have an appt with my new pdoc tomorrow. I guess until then I shall just lay in a dark room and listen to music. I am so lost and feel forever alone. I know it is the disease, a cycle brought on by a tragic event and then imense stress. But that is little comfort. It has gotten to the point that I don't even trust my own thoughts. And when you can't even trust yourself then you are TRULEY alone. Its not that I don't have anyone to talk about this with, its just that nobody understands.......why I"m so sad, so sick, so tired.........

I hear that you get well when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have been sick of it for fucking years. So much for wisdom from people who have no fucking idea what they are talking about.

NOT asking for medical advice, I have docs and am in contact with them.
NOT a danger to myself or anyone else, too damn depressed to exert that kind of effort.

[blue neen]

1. I understand too well the place you're in right now.

Sometimes you hang on minute by minute.

There is hope...I'm well now...it really can happen. Good luck with your new doc tomorrow. There are some great new medications out. Cymbalta, Pristiq, Emsam are some that I have seen help people. If only we could take an x-ray or a blood test to know exactly what would work! It can be quite a frustrating process.

Keep the faith.

[Rising Phoenix]

2. thanks so much

I am glad you are feeling better. Right now I am in a much better place than I was earlier. Did a naughty thing but I increased my ad by a very little bit, just to get me through the day. It helped tremedoulsy.
:hugs: