Well, I don't post here often, and I am not a great writer.

[amyrose2712]

But, today I made a huge step in my fight against social anxiety. I won't go into to much detail because I started this round of medications for something totally different, Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome. But they are also anti depressants and anti-anxiety. Just for some background, here is just about the only place I converse these days, I used to work and have decent relationships their, but I am out on disability. Unfortunately, this difficultly making friends is actually a recent phenomenon for me. Much of my working life,I was a bartender, weight 115lbs, and for lack of better terms , "cute". Well, we all know what happens, I am a 35 yr old, chubby nothing, with a huge Frankenarm(you ain't seen troughs pics yet)caused by an unnecessary surgery . But basically that put me into th shadows. Don't get me wrong I am VERY LUCKY to have a boyfriend that has been with me through thick and thin,. Plus an wonderful family. But, I am rambling.

I have been putting of a very important friend of mine. One that I have know since 5th grade or so. She saw me during my worse, poorest times. I was the maid of honer in her wedding, But, for some reason I was ducking her. Finally, since I have been on these meds. I actually took her phone calls more then once and had her visit today to watch the EAGLES kick ass . This may sound like nothing, but to me it was a huge step. Not only seeing her, but allowing someone into my house. BIG step. Oh, not only did she come over, we had a great time looking at old photographs and just catting. Thanks for letting me vent. Even if is sinks faster than a bowlin ball.

[Forkboy]

1. That's awesome to hear.

I have major anxiety problems, usually not related to social situations, just anxiety about a million things. I'm actually pretty asocial and don't have the urge to be around people that often anyways. But, I can certainly relate to what the anxiety can do, and how it can change so many things about your life.

What you did today sounds like a huge step to me. I wonder if the meds worked better since they weren't intended for the anxiety itself. Perhaps your condition was more receptive to the meds. Whatever the reason, it's great that you were able to reach out to your old friend, and it sounds like it made her happy too. Does she know about the anxiety condition that caused you to distance yourself? I get the feeling she'd understand.

Glad you posted down here, even it's just to vent, and I hope things keep improving. :hug:

[amyrose2712]

2. Thank you for the reply.

Yes, she know all about it. It doesn't always make it easier to deal with though. Thanks for the support. I see your posts here often. Lets chat again sometime PEACE