Phew...

[Versailles]

Had one of "those days" today where I find everything that is wrong with my life and ignore all the good stuff no matter how hard I try not to. I didn't miss any of my effexor doses, but it sure felt like it emotionally. I hate days like this.

I'm new to the this forum so I guess I should share a little. I'm 31 and dealt with depression and high social and general anxiety. For reasons I can't understand, I became a teacher in 2000 after graduating from college despite my near crippling fear of being in front a group. I was finally diagnosed as borderline bipolar about 6 years ago when I had a mental breakdown after a particularly tough time at school. I was put on Effexor starting at the 75mg dose and within 6 months was increased to 225mg. I stopped taking the effexor in 2007 when I felt like I had control of myself (right after meeting my wife). About 6 months ago, I had another breakdown and was quickly put on Effexor again at the 150 level and was upped a month ago to the 225 level again.

I just got married a little over a week ago, and I'm pretty sure that the stress of dealing with all the people, being the center of attention, and trying to make sure everything was perfect contributed to my "bad" day today. I'm so glad that I have my wife to help. She is new to the whole bipolar, depression, and anxiety life and she is still learning how to deal with someone whose moods can shift very rapidly. She still occasionally laughs at some of my issues, but she's adapting...she's learned not to sit down at the table in a restaurant until I choose wear I sit so I can not have a door or lots of people at my back (if we are in the middle tables, it isn't fun!).

Anyhow, I actually feel a little better writing things down...helps to occupy the mind. If anyone has any suggestions for avoiding these bad days or helping my wife stay sane around me, they'd be greatly appreciated! Thanks for letting me release a bit all!

[elleng]

1. Talk about things,

especially with your wife, and here.

Good Luck!

[EFerrari]

2. Congratulations, Versailles, and welcome to the forum.

The first year of a marriage has a lot of change in it. I hope you guys give yourself credit as you move through the situation and learn to plan with each other. :hi: