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I'm kinda in a bind as far as people to turn to for emotional support. My mother just can't handle it and is an emotional wreck herself completely independent of the fact of my divorce really, but for example I had to spend my Sunday comforting her over the fact that my STBE, they got on well and talked a lot, hasn't called her. I mean she was in tears and depressive, it's all about her troubles when I see her not mine.
My sister is better, much really, but still she's a little to close to the issue and I know if I open up to much to her I could actually cause a lot more tension that is necessary - she can be very judgmental and can sometimes react like my mother.
My closest friend (actually my cousin too) has a marriage that is breaking up too and I haven't even seen or spoken to him, haven't been able to get in touch with him since the news about his marriage came out a few months ago.
My other close friends just are not the type you can lean on like I need to, some will help just by being available to have some fun with when I'm ready and able. But there was just one guy really left that I feel close to who I could turn to for talking about what I was going through etc...
He calls me last night and it turns out HIS marriage is likely to be ending too!
For fuck's sake who thought up this grand idea of 'marriage' in the first place!
I fully supported (wrote letters, voted for candidates, held signs, donated money) homosexual people getting the right to marry the people they love but maybe I did them no favors, maybe they should've taken the opportunity to invent a better system for cohabitation, raising kids, forming families.
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