one year ago, yesterday, my son hung himself

[easttexaslefty]

And much to my amazement,I am still alive.In a moment of panic he made a rash decision. One that will haunt me all the days of my life.I think of him every second, every moment, every hour and everyday of my life.
Yesterday we did a balloon release. We had 50 balloons that we tied messages on to. We told him we loved him and missed him and that we hope he is at peace.The balloons floated off together, and we watched them until they were no longer in sight.I tried to remember his often joyful life and not the terrible end.I am lucky to have such a sweet, gentle soul as my son.I am grateful for the 33 years he was with me.
So much needs to be done, regarding suicide. It is much more common than people think, Do this grieving mother a favor and check out www.afsp.org . Learn the signs and what you can do. Contribute what you can to community walks, such as, OUT OF THE DARKNESS COMMUNITY WALKS www.outofthedarkness.org . Walk with us and give us your support.Please remember that suicide is not the answer and chose life.

[auntAgonist]

1. Marie, I'm glad you posted in this forum. How are

you and your family doing? You're in my thoughts often.

:hug:

kesha

[easttexaslefty]

2. its a stuggle, honestly

fortunitely we are a close family.Our love for Danny has drawn us even closer together and we keep him alive in our memories the best we can. thank you for your kind thoughts

[livetohike]

3. Thinking of you all and wishing you strength and peace

Thank you for the links, too :hug:.

[Bullwinkle925]

4. It is so very difficult to live life without someone who meant so much to you!

I don't have answers - hell, sometimes I'm not even sure of the questions.
I am glad to see that you're doing as well as you are. I'm still trying to get there myself.
It is a long, hard, sad journey.
I wish you the very best and take strength in seeing you putting your best foot forward.

[RevCheesehead]

5. Thank you for sharing your story.

It sounds like you have found a way of celebrating life itself, as well as the life of your son. You have survived, and are out there trying to make a difference for others who are in pain. That is the most loving tribute you could do!
Bless you, in your grief and in your joy. :hug: