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with doing Pranayama. But it usually really takes some effort, like an hour or more of serious breathing.. you have to practice for several months usually to even build up the muscles to do it that long.. and you need a destination.
when i started to do it, for the ASC experience.. i could see the veil, or the 'Event Horizon' it got closer and closer, the trainers stopped me the first couple of times.. the last time as i became aware i was 'Right There' the trainer touched my shoulder and whispered..'Aferm'.. i was totally blissed out and i reasoned they meant as in 'Affirmation'.. saying something in order to get something.
My wife had run off with two prostitutes and a drug dealer and taken our 2 year old son.. and was leaving him with addicts and miscreants for long periods while she ran to FL on drug runs... i did not know where he was.. and was beside myself with fear and worry.. which i would blame her for and i was lost in anger and fear..mostly anger.
so i thought the only thing i really wanted was to end the conflict between her and i.
i took 2 more breaths and in a nanoSecond i exploded into a brilliant white Arch Light. it was fiercely streaming past/thru me and electrocuting me at the same time. i was invisible except for a hint of clear shell like outline, the light was streaming out of a single point about 10 feet away or so. a voice like a bell thundered thru me as the words came..'THEN LOVE HER.!!'...i sort of reflexed 'yea but'... and the voice replied, 'BUT NOTHING, LOVE HER.!!'
and i was overcome with what was pure 'unconditional LOVE..', the stuff i had heard of in new age books but now i was it.. and i realized i was before the burning bush and i had neglected to remove my shoe and i was arguing with it. not at any time did i sense this a 'god' or a 'God'.
so i started blessing her twice every time i cursed her.. and i envisioned her and our son in a white and rose light and a protective blue globe, i prayed for her guidance out of her situation and protection till she was safe., first thing upon waking, every time i thought of her and last thing at nite.
in 18 days i received a letter from her, saying she had moved into her mother's house, and i could see our son whenever i wanted. she later got a government job that took her all over europe and eastern europe for several years, our son got to learn several more languages and now has a PhD in engineering, and she remaried a very fine individual who is making a differince in the world.
I am convinced the metaphor of Indra's Net is a reality.. when you quit smoking or drinking you make it easier for everyone else, what ever good you do makes the whole universe just a little better.
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