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I did it with the help of AA though not from within AA.
Off and on, sometimes without interruption though often with large gaps, I've attended AA meetings throughout my sober years. I date my sobriety from the second day I attended an AA meeting (can't do it from the first -- I was drunk when I arrived and went straight to a bar at meeting's close, newly acquired Big Book in hand).
There are aspects of the program with which I strongly disagree and facets I don't want to live without. Fortunately, I have a unique home group I stumbled into during my first thirsty-days. It's the only meeting I continue to attend. Lot of sobriety there. In fact, when I take my cake tomorrow, I'll still be a less-than-average drunk: among the three of us who celebrate in September, the average this year will be 22 years sobriety. And lots of different types of sober people, too, so my relation to the fellowship doesn't stand out as too exceptional.
What I will share at this meeting Wednesday evening, however, is my firm belief my sobriety has been a group project. Without the example of all the others I've known through the years, I'd never have learned how to live sober. And without a sober life, I'd never have found how much I care for the people around me. All I hope, each year, is that I'll measure up to the gift so freely given me by so many others, and in the measuring find the means to "pay it forward."
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