THIS time I know I can never, ever, EVER smoke another one again in my entire life.
It was remarkably easy for me because of an herbal preparation that I recommend HIGHLY from these people:
http://www.viable-herbal.com/I started taking the capsules just about the minute I decided to quit and I had almost NO cravings for the nicotine at all -- maybe 4 or 5 times over a period of 2 or more months (and they have a nice, quick solution for that). I did have some "cravings" for the ritual -- sit down and relax and do something indulgent for myself. But I could usually think myself thru that without any real problems. I still wish i could find something to take the place of that "little bit of self-indulgence and relaxation" that smoking represented. A cup of herbal tea is the natural suggestion, but the urge passes by the time the tea is prepared and I'm not that big an herbal tea drinker.
Anyhoo, the REASON I quit still cracks me up, and I'll share it (again -- I've told this story several other times). I have had a bit of a high blood pressure problem and in the back of my head I was reluctantly coming to the realization that in all probability I'd have to give up smoking to get this under control (esp. since I wasn't able to take any of the 7 or 8 b.p. meds I tried).
So on Dec. 9 I was having some symptoms that scared me, and I took my b.p. with the little cuff device I have (love it), and getting astronomical, "stroke territory" readings. Scared me. I went to bed that night thinking that I'd probably have to do what I figured I'd have to do: quit.
The next morning, i was still experiencing symptoms, and I smoked one cig around 9 a.m., sometime after I got up, took my b.p. a bunch more times with the same ^&%*@# results, and smoked my last cigarette at 11 a.m. And like I said, started taking those herbal capsules which I'd had on hand since 1999.
I guess it was the next day when my husband asked me if my b.p. had improved. "Let's see what it says now," he suggested. So I pulled the thing out, and as I was putting it on, he looked at me kinda funny and said, "You're putting it on wrong." And indeed I was -- backwards, so the monitoring part was against the back of my wrist, not the inside where the pulse is. When I put it on correctly, the b.p. was still on the high side, but certainly not "stroke territory."
I HAD TRICKED MYSELF INTO QUITTING!! Cracks me up.
The bad news is that it unleashed my food (candy) addiction. I had successfully lost 31 pounds on the South Beach diet -- wonderful, healthy, successful and effective diet I recommend highly -- but have gained 2/3 of it back. I haven't been able to get a handle on THAT addiction, but I fully intend to. Just as soon as I find the key. :-( I joined OA but am so far not getting it. Oh well.
But at least I don't smoke anymore, and for that I'm gleeful. Even tho I live with 2 smokers (who are very nice quite on their own about not smoking much around me) -- it just doesn't affect me at all. My ONLY cravings are about that bit of self-indulgent ritual, and even now, after all these months I still occasionally get that craving for a few fleeting seconds. I don't allow myself to dwell on it.
Edited: My other quits were at much earlier periods in my life, all for 1 to 2 years at a time. This was in many ways the easiest, and I'm reasonably confident that I won't go back to it this time. Now to just get the "addiction" thing under control -- or recovery, actually.