I've sort of fallen off the wagon, haven't been working the program.

[Critters2]

I'm Critters, and I'm powerless over my emotions.

I haven't been working the program for several weeks. First, things kept coming up that caused me to miss meetings. Then I stopped writing to my sponsor and doing step work. I was busy, you know. Stopped reading daily EA lit. Then the inevitable began. Not eating right, not sleeping at appropriate times (but at inappropriate times), fell behind on bills, and became depressed, irritable, angry, lonely.

I just sent my sponsor an apologetic e-mail and some step writing. Found my EA daily reading book (called _Today_) a couple of days ago and have been doing the affirmations again. Will get to a meeting tomorrow night and another Monday morning.

It's all been a reminder how much the program helps, and how my life can easily become unmanageable if I stop working it. Not long ago, I would've thought this meant I was weak. Now I think of it as meaning I'm dependent on my HP. And that isn't a bad thing.

Thanks for letting me share. Hope you're all doing well. :hi:

[SPKrazy]

1. It isn't weakness

it is in fact a strength of mind to work a program, or it would be called play a program :D

So you are in fact stronger if you work your program and depend on the source, your HP, clear out the crap that keeps you from being connected to HP, and work to keep it clear, than it is to fall apart and be in fact disturbed, out of control, and frankly, weakened.

:hug:

:loveya:

glad you realized you need what you need! :D

[Critters2]

4. Thanks, Southpaw! I've been to meetings, and doing readings

and working it again. Thanks for your support! Hope you're doing okay today! :hug:

[Kajsa]

2. I hope you're feeling better, Critters.

Your back on track- that's what counts.

Yep, it sure gets damn uncomfortable real quick
when we stray far from the program.

I've had several uncomfortable reminders of that
myself.

My mind is a mine field when I'm off and running
on my own.

Thanks for sharing, Critters- it's a valuable reminder
to all of us.

:hi: :hug:

[Critters2]

3. Thanks, kajsa. I made a meeting last night and one this morning.

There are no meetings tomorrow, but I'm planning on making the Wednesday evening one. And doing other things to get back on track.

Thanks! :hi: