I'll answer the more personal aspect last since I might ramble a bit, but I do want to get a few thoughts out first.
One of the most important things that I've found since I started this was we have to pace ourselves, this is a long term thing that's going to take years. When it comes to the idea that we can regulate better then get rid of drugs it took me a couple of years to get used to the idea, it's going to take others time as well. The studies we've done so far bear it out though, it's just a matter of reminding people how bad what we're doing now works and putting options that do work better in front of them. They'll take a couple of years too maybe, it's not a debate we'll win today. It's just about putting information in front of people, give them something to think about. When we start to look at it like a debate we're going to push them away instead, it's uncomfortable at first.
I tend to do this stuff morning to night and most days of the week when I'm at it, then when I start to get frustrated I take a break for a bit and find other things to do. Find your own pace and don't get burned out, minds can be changed or opened with just a few well placed words here and there. It doesn't have to be a full time job if it's something that's going to eat at you, and if that's the case it shouldn't be. Take a long term view, it'll help.
Last point for the moment, don't make it just about the prison system. There is SO much more involved here. Our drug war in the late 1990's was estimated at roughly 8% of all international trade, referenced in the following link in a letter on the right hand side.
http://www.dpft.org/voices.htmThat money finances terrorists, organized crime, and revolution around the world as well as the corruption of our own police and judiciary. In Columbia they are moving billions of drug profits into politics and trying to take over the system, in Afghanistan it finances the resurgent Taliban, and it's felt around the world in one form or another. It's a market we created, and we can destroy as easily as regulating the stuff ourselves.
Prohibition was supposed to protect our kids, it doesn't. Death rates have climbed by 7 times in cocaine with a similar rise in heroin as well. Lifetime use is up, not down, more people know what drugs feel like now than ever and more die from it. Rather than getting rid of drugs we've spawned new variants such as crack and designer drugs as well. And in the end we can't even keep the stuff out of our own prisons, it's been a record of nothing but damage and failure from start to finish. The facts are all on our side, just share them. As Jack Cole of LEAP says, drugs are just too dangerous to leave in the hands of criminals, better that we regulate and control them instead.
Ok, to the rest. I'd love to stay in touch with you, anything I can do to help just say the word. I sometimes don't check in here for a while, sometimes for a couple of months, so I'll send you my email and you can contact me there if need be. I tend to have too much of a one track mind and don't want people to get tired of it by being too pushy in one place all at once ;)
This part isn't as easy to answer, both because reactions vary and because I suck at reading people sometimes. Now and then yes, people seem to think it's ridiculous that a kid could go though something like that. More often though it seems to bring confusion, they just don't understand or believe how something like that could happen. There's a dirty little secret to the juvenile system, at least there was when I was a kid though it probably varies by State. If you commit a crime they give you a sentence and you've got an idea when you might get out, but if you just refuse to cooperate they declare you uncontrollable and they now own you either till you turn 18, or till they think they are done with you. It's not easy to convince them that it's time to let you go, especially when you don't really understand why you're there in the first place. When I was a kid gangs weren't as bad as they are now, it was more fists and knives than guns, but it was bad enough at 10 and it didn't make sense to me that I was the one in trouble. Oh well.
Problem I have now is that I do suck at reading people, I try to be a nice guy but always end up offending someone somehow it seems. I don't know what the laws or rules are like for juveniles in particular these days, but in addition to the lockups themselves the two rounds in isolation didn't help. Did shorter ones as well that weren't too bad, but these 30+ day ones were fun. Cell was about 8x8 or so, solid inch or more thick wood door with a deadbolt on one wall and an translucent plexiglas block on the opposite wall for a little light and that was it except for a bare mattress. All day every day, only got out for a few minutes each meal to eat at the desk in the same room or to shower a couple of times a week. Gives you a lot of time to think, and it does change you.
These days I'm honestly happiest alone, I can go weeks or months without seeing a single soul except for my wife and kids and be perfectly happy with that. People tend to annoy me to tell the truth, I wish them well and tend to smile and laugh when I read them or see them interact with each other, but I don't belong and really don't want to.
In the end I guess I do this so we don't keep making new people like me, either the current form or the angry kid I used to be. This isn't a good result for a "justice" system, and neither are most of the others.