Sometimes, I feel so damn hopeful.....

[solara]

I know without a doubt that we can turn this around, that we can find balance and justice and honor again as a nation and as a people. I feel great when I see our Democratic leaders going after the corruption that has become our government, and miracle of miracles, even some of the MSM are starting to wake up. I really believe that there is still time and that we are well on our way to stopping BushCo once and for all before they completely destroy everything. And I DO mean everything.

But not today. Today I just feel a sense of overwhelming despair. My heart breaks as I think about our troops still in Iraq. I think about the medics dropping arms and legs and hands and feet into garbage bags. I think about the blood and the dust and the hopelessness our troops must be feeling.. the vast and all encompassing despair that surely grows in their hearts as they see their friends vaporized and mangled day after day after day with no end in sight.

Some say that hell was fashioned with lies by the Liar of all liars. I use the word hell in a feeble attempt to describe the indescribable, but the truth is that I cannot imagine the hell that is existence in Iraq. Jesus, I am so incredibly moved when I think of the absolute courage it must take for our troops just to open their eyes and face each day, each night in Iraq. And all of this goes on, with no end in sight, because of the lies our President and his cabal told us for reasons that are beyond any sane comprehension.

Then I think of the Iraqi people. I try to put myself in their situation and I hardly have the imagination to do so. How would I feel if foreign troops kicked in my door and, without warning, ravaged my family while shouting orders in a foreign language?

I try to imagine how it would feel to watch helplessly as foreign soldiers or even the local police herded my husband or father or brother or son into a waiting van never to return. How would I be able to cope if, as I went out the next day, I saw beheaded bodies, drenched in blackening blood, lining the curbs of my street, and what if those heads belonged to my loved ones? This must surely be hell with no end to the horror in sight.

The other night here on DU, I saw the pictures of the Radio & TV Correspondents dinner and I cannot get them out of my head. I saw pictures of Nancy Pelosi and George W. together and, although I was pleased that Junior seemed so very uncomfortable, it disturbed me somehow that Madame Speaker was even there.

I saw the images of that obscenity, Karl Rove, acting the fool while one of the few “journalists” I had just begun to trust, applauded and laughed. It sure looked like everyone was having one hell of a good time. But my only thought was: meanwhile, our troops and the Iraqis are facing death and carnage that we cannot even imagine. And everyone knows BushCo is planning a new war, one that might actually become the ‘Mother of All Wars’ - yet, the party, like the horror, just seems to go on and on and on and on.

Dammit, how can this be? Am I just imagining what appears to be so obvious? That this occupation of violence in Iraq, BASED ON LIES, is a monumental bloody horror of a CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY? Every moment that ‘they’ spent the other night schmoozing, telling jokes and acting like benign buffoons, human beings in Iraq were being blown to shit because of their lies and the tacit validation of those lies.

Am I just imagining the blueprint of corruption that has been emerging these past few weeks? Am I just imagining that there appears to have been a determined attempt to systematically overthrow our government and that all roads lead to the corrupt criminals in the White House? And yet, there they all were ..together.. behaving as if nothing, absolutely nothing was amiss.

Sometimes I think I might go mad….. perhaps I already have. When did it become ‘mainstream’ for Americans to TORTURE people? Perhaps this entire country has gone mad trying to deal with the nightmares that are so obviously the truth, while hanging on to what passes for truth in order to keep functioning.

So…maybe I am just as delusional as I believe the RepubliCons are and life will just keep on as it has been, with just a few gasps of horror here and there along with a few more deaths. No doubt some idiots will go to jail and ‘justice will be served’. Prices will go up and we will hear less and less about truth to power. We will have elections of sorts and may even believe that the votes were counted. But, we will deal, because we are Amurkins and we gotta keep working to pay for the gas to run our cars so we can get to work so we can feed our families and pay the rent and keep on keepin’ on and well… there it is. It's as distressing as hell with no end in sight.

But sometimes, I feel so damn hopeful…



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[blues90]

1. Great rant .

I feel all the same things you do , all except I don't get hopeful .

This to me , all the lies and crimes and mass death seems like it is not quite real some how , I know it is but just to imagine it and adjust to it and acknowledge it as some sort of reality is a task I don;t think many can handle and not go insane .

You would think if this were true and fully realized then masses of concerned citizens would be in the streets 24/7 without letup to bring this to an end . Oh , I understand the reasons people don't do this but I see no other way around getting our country back .

Hearings may bring a few heads rolling but it is a bit late for many who have died or continue to suffer as a result of this admin's lies .

I don't see things getting better anytime soon , the only way I can see hope is if almost everyone refuses to purchase from the corps or drops their stocks and stops paying taxes as a clear message but I know this is dreaming for certain .

We live in a time where the citizen has much less community and control as they had many years ago and the buildup to where we are now was so invisable and slow that it crept into our lives like a cancer .

[solara]

2. Exactly.. I guess I still cling to hope because I am afraid the alternative,

the unending despair and depression (which I also feel from time to time), would finally defeat me. I wouldn't give up if I had cancer, especially if it had metastasized and I won't give up on my country. This is America and I have to believe, no matter how hopeless it may seem at times. I just have to.


But I hear you.. believe me I do.


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[OwnedByFerrets]

3. K & R and wish I could do it again and again......

thank you for expressing my thoughts, but much more eloquently than I can.

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4. Hope is good to have, however...

Sometimes blind hope is just as fallable as blind faith...It is good to have both, but you must measure them. You must understand them and know where they're going. Is it really hope we have sometimes, or the leaning back to conveniance that we would wish things would just be about our every day necessities?

I despise carnage. Violence. I strived my entire life to be a pacifist (and being a person of my stature, I could have easily been a bully but have always abhored bullies). However I think now is the time for everyone to stop relying on hope...I think it took us to a crossroads we must take before we walk with hope again. I think that crossroad is what we will do to make our country better....will we rely on flawed voting systems? Will we rely on protests....will we rely on phone calls, letters? All of which are immensely good, necessary, and valuable assets of revolution.

I just can't help but wonder if there is more we can do. As a pacifist I would hold violent actions at the ultimate lowest of the things the american people can do, but...I feel we need to do more. I don't really know what action that is, but I do know...if the american people use hope as a banner and stand up together as a whole, the madness will end.