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life for me has not been good,there are few times I felt life seemed beautiful. I hate the human condition.I hate inequality. I hate the viciousness of nature,the mindless ruin of storms, life eating life to die anyway,evolution sucks and if there is a 'creator' i want to kick it's ass for being a psychopathic shit head torturing and murdering what it made and says it'loves'.The earth is a beautiful horror.I am so tired of struggle of survival, of feeling trapped and alone,powerless ,voiceless,feeling like Sisyphus,trying to make it better,I am tired of bullies and assholes,perpetuating injustice incompetence and corruption as people stand by afraid to risk stepping in to help.Tired of fighting others defenses and being a target because I challenge the status quo or people don't understand me,tired of the strife in life.Tired of being sick ,Tired of having to eat,stretching everything thin to the breaking point as the month ends.Life has worn down the beauty of this world, for me,I look at it see the beauty but also the carcass it will be at the same time.My heart is broken,I just want to leave this world I want to free it from the cruelty of the way it is..
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