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You know, manufacturing jobs and infrastructure is fine, but what about those of us who work in clerical/admin or *gasp* creative venues...? Or are those management and admin jobs supposed to 'trickle down' as more construction co's, etc get contracts...?
really. who else benefits from those programs?
and where does that leave the rest of us?
I guess we could call this my bi-monthly rant on employment or the lack thereof and my angst spilling over. Wondering why i have such bad sleep patterns and this feeling of lethargy I can't shake and it takes all my effort to just do the regular house chores, gee...could i be depressed? you betcha.
When searching for a job has become a merry-go-round between craigslist, monster, careerbuilder, and the local paper...and anything wqorth even applying for is 30 miles away and over a summitt (that i would drive in the snow, obviously) and even then i'm not getting any bites...what's the next option? My skills mean nothing, i have only an AA and a recent HR management certificate that means diddly when they want a 4 year degree and 3 years of experience.. my best bet is to find a way to get my stupid book ideas published, make my million and cash in my chips...
I miss not having someplace to BE each day. I miss not having a reason to get up in the morning and I miss a PAYCHECK...I worry about how this looks to my kids, and honestly, i also feel bad in front of other parents at their school. We can't participate in bookfairs or certain PTA events because we can't afford it. I hate that my kids know the meaning of the term 'mommy's broke' ~~~
I have an idea to start a non profit and I even know enough folks in this town to get a board together. Then maybe a grant would get it off the ground... maybe that would be a better use of my time than groveling for something that ain't there anyway. maybemaybemaybe... I just wish i had the drive right now, feeling like hiding under the covers until.... when? (2012 may not even be long enough.)
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