how i spent the 10th anniversary of 911

[barbtries]

stayed home. two loads of laundry, cleaned the kitchen, cooked (a rarity). watched the 8th and 9th seasons of midsomer murders on netflix. played mah jonng on yahoo and poker on the internet.
many moments of silence.
that is all. got in my car to come to work this morning and the first thing i hear on NPR is a man reciting the names of firemen lost on 911. cried.

911 happened less than two months after my daughter was killed. i was still in shock and deep deep grieving, and when the attacks occurred i felt as if lead was being poured into my bloodstream. it WEIGHED me. tons of it. it was big news, huge and tragic news...and at the same time Bekah was still, unbelievably, dead, and there were court dates and a million sleepless nights and the total disintegration of life as I knew it prior to July 19, 2001.

an experience that some 3,000 families soon came to share, all on the same day, less than two months after Bekah was killed.

and now ten years have passed, incredibly. i have to mark the occasion, i must, too many souls gone in an instant to forget. but i just wanted to avoid the media stream. as soon as i was exposed to a few drops of it i began crying.

maybe i just wasn't in the mood to cry yesterday. i don't know.


what did you do?

[ScreamingMeemie]

1. I am so sorry for your loss. I did not watch television. I took my son

to watch his beloved Lions play...and showed up late on purpose so that I wouldn't be forced to remember in the manner so many in our country were remembering. For me, those tragedies are personal tragedies. I feel sorry for the loss, sorrier still for the maudlin sensationalism. As so many tell me that I have to move on from the loss of my husband, I am moving on.

[barbtries]

2. i am sorry for your loss as well Meemie

we move on at our own pace. don't let others dictate that to you.

[bigwillq]

3. So very sorry for your loss.

:hug:

[barbtries]

5. thank you bigwillq

:hug:

[Ichingcarpenter]

4. I Watched Obi Wan Kenobi

Luke Skywalker:
It looks like Sandpeople did this, all right. Look, here are Gaffi sticks, Bantha tracks. It's just I never heard of them hitting anything this big before.

Ben Kenobi:
They didn't. But we are meant to think they did. These tracks are side by side. Sandpeople always ride single file to hide their numbers.

Luke Skywalker:
These are the same Jawas that sold us R2 and 3PO.


Ben Kenobi:
And these blast points, too accurate for Sandpeople. Only Imperial stormtroopers are so precise.


sorry about your daughter,

[barbtries]

6. thank you iching

i couldn't help taking that snip of dialogue and applying it to the incident under discussion. must have been the imperial stormtroopers. what a mess.

[msanthrope]

7. I'm so sorry. May peace come to you and yours. nt

[barbtries]

8. thanks ms

working on it.

[dtexdem]

9. I had my birthday dinner at a dim sum restaurant.

Then I took my car in to get a new stereo system installed.

In between and after, I watched some football, and got to see the end of the 49ers' win -- GO NINERS!

Never could see why they were devoting so much attention to the anniversary of a telephone number. ;-)

[Initech]

10. I flew back from New York on Jetblue.

It was so weird watching the in flight TVs because every single channel had something relating to 9/11, I eventually gave up and turned on my laptop and watched episodes of The Office. :eyes:

[TBF]

11. I'm just not a tv person - except for sports

but I couldn't even turn on the US Open yesterday because I was too busy. We went out for lunch, had some kids' activities. We did talk to my 8-yr old briefly about the day so she would have some background in case anyone mentioned it.

And I did think about the brother of an old classmate of mine - he was killed in the towers and his wife was pregnant at the time. We took up a collection in our class to send to her. It wasn't much, but we felt like we wanted to do something. RIP, Jon.

So sorry about your daughter.

[barbtries]

13. thank you TBF

[rosesaylavee]

12. So sorry for your loss barbtries...

I spent it in a similar way. Avoided TV and radio and internet news of it. Still had some exposure but was able to limit it. Still is a hot issue on so many levels for me that I knew watching any of 'that' would take some time to recover again.

Peace to you!

[barbtries]

14. thank you rosesaylavee