Urgent--need some light and good vibes from my friends

[MorningGlow]

Okay, this is it. I have hit the proverbial brick wall; I have arrived at the crossroads. I have been dragging my feet about making changes in my life that will keep me from having a nervous breakdown as I serve everyone else but don't take care of myself. But I have decided to get the ball rolling tonight. So, if you could, dear ASAH friends, please send me some light to give me the courage to go through with my "talk" with my loved ones. I know I need to do this, but it is going to make them very angry and defensive, and I am not looking forward to it.

But then again, I figure, it's time for them to get emotional for a change instead of me. I have shed so many tears in secret over the past year (and longer) that I should have run dry by now. Funny, though, tear ducts are apparently bottomless.

Thanks in advance, my friends. :grouphug:

[get the red out]

1. Sending

Praying for your strength.

:hug:

[lildreamer316]

2. I'll be thinking about you

today; and your family. Best of luck with your necessary conversations. :hug: :hug:

[davsand]

3. This family stuff is not easy.

Sending good thoughts to you. I sympathize. May you all find what you need.


Laura

[I Have A Dream]

4. My energy is there with you, MG.

Please draw upon it as you need it.

I'm visualizing you being surrounded by supportive light and love. You are not alone at any point. :hug:

May this work out for the highest good of all involved.

:grouphug:

[FirstLight]

5. Well your title had me worried for a moment...

I thought someting may be 'wrong' on the Homefront... but the decision to take control and ask for what YOU NEED is nothing else but Right, sweetheart.

Yes, it will be difficult, and many don;t like it when we begin taking back the energy that is ours, when they have had such easy access to it for so long. Make sure you are good & grounded and open to the light above, make sure your protection is in place and hold firm to your convictions...I know once we cappies dig in, we are hard to budge!
AND, you can do it in a loving and honoring way, because you deserve to have your own needs met.

too often I find myself screaming for that ..because I forgot to ask and create it for myself.

so Bravo & Blessings honey, I am sending you all the light & love you can handle! :hug:

(PM me or find me on FB later if you need to vent or want to talk about the nitty gritty, too...kay?)

[omega minimo]

6. we gotcher back

a big warm hug and have you read http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=245x103344

IMHO we are all on that same journey, inevitably if we are one with our ideals..... if that helps you find your center of love and strength to deal with this...

[Celebration]

7. sending

blessing, courage, and strength.

You are shielded.........

[northernlights]

8. love and light and good vibes to you

and your family, so you all may reach mutual understanding and support. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

[Flying Dream Blues]

9. Light and love to you...

may you have the knowledge that you are strong and good, and coming from a place of love as you communicate your needs to those who love you. Wishing you the greatest good for all of you.

xoxo
:hug:

[JanusAscending]

10. Darlin', I'm right there with ya!

I ask for wisdom, and discernment for you in your situation. I also ask that your Angels surround and protect you as you strive for the best the Universe has to give you. STAND FAST...and know you are loved, and are worthy!!! Much love and light to you and your family. JA

[Delphinus]

11. Light and love and communication vibes

are coming to you. Good luck.

:hug:

[OneGrassRoot]

12. ...

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:


Good luck. :)

[Dora]

13. Of course.

Godspeed, and for the greatest good.

:hug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

14. sending light and a mantra (actually, a wazifa, but it means the same thing)

to be used whenever you need to break through--"Ya Fattah". This means "The Opener of the Way" If you say it aloud, do it an odd number of times, if you wish to stay in the Sufi tradition from whence it comes. If you do it on the breath, do the "Fattah" on the outbreath. This does work; I have seen it in action from anything from clearing a traffic jam to breakthrough in a problem.

[BuelahWitch]

15. Sending light

You have to do what's best for you. They will survive. :hug:

[lisa58]

16. done

[MorningGlow]

17. Update

You guys are the BEST. Thanks so much, each and every one of you who took the time out to send me your best vibes. :hug: :hug: :hug:

I ended up talking to Mr. MG only (instead of having my mom there as well), but that was okay, because he was the main person who needed to hear it. I do believe it was your support and your light that kept me calm, helped me choose my words well, and prevented me from getting teary (which I do too easily these days). I didn't accuse anybody of anything; instead, I quietly told him that I'm not healthy (mentally/spiritually), and I miss having friends IRL. I informed him that I can go for weeks, if not months, talking to no one but him and my mom, and that is decidedly unhealthy, as far as I'm concerned. (He is not the type of person who needs friends, but I am, and I feel like I'm shriveling up inside without social interaction.) I told him I wanted to join something, but I'm not sure what yet. (I'm thinking maybe a UU church, a meditation circle, a writers' group...but I'm going to just be open to what the Universe puts in my path.) He said I missed my coven, but I don't. I just miss having a group of friends. (By the time I left, they were most decidedly NOT my friends.)

I also told him that I want to talk to a therapist. I'm not sure I need it, but I want to find out. At the very least, perhaps she can give me some insight into how to start changing my life or point me in the right direction so I can go about building a circle of friends IRL again.

Mr. MG was quite agreeable and didn't protest in the least. However, he's a Leo, so I know it won't be long before he dwells on it and decides "it's all about him"--as usual. But it's not. This is solely about me. And saying it all this out loud to him is the first step toward changing my life for the better. I hope. Cross fingers.

Thanks again, everyone. :yourock: :grouphug:

[get the red out]

18. It's HARD to discuss needs with your mate

I am so glad you made it through, it is very hard for me to have discussions with my mate about my personal needs, and it is a necessity in order to stay sane (and stay together). Bless you! Good luck in finding exactly what you need, I am sure it will appear in your path.

:fistbump:

[Celebration]

20. Your plan will work

When checking out churches, include looking at Unity Churches. No, I don't go to one, but you would like the one here, from a spiritual perspective.

Congratulations on getting through this and being able to face this calmly and sensibly.

[MagickMuffin]

21. I'm glad your discussion turned out productive

I sent love and light your way even though I didn't post, I had my Rosicrucian Convocation today at the Dallas Lodge. I'm not really a social creature by nature but I have been trying to change this aspect about myself. The first step was volunteering for Barack Obama during the primaries. I went to a lot of functions by myself. It is something that has been difficult as I like having my mate with me. But he wasn't as caught up in the election as I was and what he did contribute he did at home.

Then I decided I wanted to restart my Rosicrucian studies and attend the Convocations. Again this is something that I struggle with as I wanted my mate to come with me. But at this time he hasn't made the same commitment as I have, so I go alone. I'm soooo glad that I decided to do this as it is really helping me to bond with people who are of like mind and I am starting to come out of my shell even more now that I am doing this. Our journey is one to be shared, yet when you consider it, it is also one that one must take by ourselves.

I have even met someone who has helped me with dealing with the negative emotions I've been having toward the political hatemongers. He made me recognize that we have to view these things with an objective perspective, view them through the mental faculties and not with the emotion faculties.

I finally have my Sanctum up and running so I can do my weekly monographs and it is something that is taking me some time to adjust to, but it is my time to connect to the Cosmos and get Attuned with the Master Within.


I wish you the best of luck in finding the group you need to help you along the way.

Light, Life, and Love

[northernlights]

22. good on you

Well done, and keep it up. Other things you could do is join a club or do something physical, like karate lessons or tai chi or yoga (ok, things *I* want to do, but seriously physical exercise is really important to all aspects of well being). I think those things will be the best therapy you could have!

Freelance writers tend to suffer terribly from isolation/insulation. It's definitely necessary to get out among others to refresh, recharge, renew your outlook. This is absolutely normal on your part. :hug: :hug: :hug:

[Dora]

23. Good work.

:hug:

[BlueIris]

19. Good luck. nt

[Eurobabe]

24. Of course

{{{vibes coming your way}}} Take care of yourself.

I am trying to do the same at present. :hi:

[MorningGlow]

26. Then good vibes back atcha, my friend

I hope all goes well with you too. :hug:

[Blue_Roses]

25. I'm sending good vibes

:hug:

[Kind of Blue]

27. Oh, MorningGlow. Deciding not to have a nervous

breakdown is a big positive step. I do send much comfort for all of you tonight :hug:

[Kind of Blue]

28. Good gracious, am I ever late! I'm so glad the first step

came out positively. :) I really should read the thread before jumping into action.